~ DECEMBER 17th - 31st, 2007 ~

(the latest entries are always added to the top)

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. - AL I:40

Monday December 31st 2007 – 5:30pm Carol asked, “I loved your astrological take on Scorpios, can you do all of the signs?” ….. Answer: I quoted, albeit slightly edited, my 'Scorpio' from an unpublished article that I wrote titled “Zodiac Signs and their Sexual Proclivities.”  I was thinking about releasing it as a pamphlet this summer but I’m not sure people will want to read my views on this subject; my Cancer whit drools out more often than not which admittedly seems to annoy some people. And speaking of Scorpios, did you know that this sign is the only sign which has a specific day designated worldwide as 'MARRIED TO A SCORPIO DAY' in honor of those individual who married these foul creatures and who then “suffer greatly” throughout the year! I didn’t mention it on the blog but the date is November 18th.

3:00pm Yes Mike, you are correct. The basic purpose of any Mass is to unconsciously prepare the general viewing public for the mysteries taught within its faith. In the case of Aleister Crowley’s Gnostic Mass it prepares people for the mysteries taught within the Initiatory Degree System of the Ordo Templi Orientis. In other words, even if an individual is incapable of perceiving the Truth, by merely attending the Gnostic Mass they will ‘unconsciously’ be drawn into the OTO as was Grady McMurtry himself and others. It is no secret that within this fraternity the Gnostic Mass is its greatest recruitment tool although few are aware of exactly why. After attending a well performed Mass an individual should feel compelled to join the Order. This is why the Mass must be performed to the letter. Any deviation from the ritual should never be tolerated because it has become a Black Mass, the spawn of what Crowley refers to as the Black Brotherhood and it draws people into the proclivities of the community performing the ritual rather than the OTO itself.

1:45pm Mary ... yes, but only if you swallow.

1:15pm I wrote to a student that Astrologers will tell him - "that of all the Zodiac signs, Scorpio's reputation as the promiscuous or lustful sex-machine is completely unwarranted and merely a ‘cultivate image.’  Scorpio is a hardened fixed sign ruled by Mars and Pluto which often makes it unchangeable and driven by an insatiable need to be right. This is the Scorpionic quest on all levels, sex included; which more so than not gives them the fear of being caught in a compromising position wherein they can be proven wrong or criticized. So rarely do Scorpios do outrageous sexual feats or perversities. In truth, Scorpios are the most prudish sign of the zodiac. The key to good Scorpio sex is always found in ‘private’ where legends are created. Remember; being a ‘fixed’ sign the Scorpio often has difficulty in letting themselves go in order to really enjoy sex but if they are in a happy relationship, feeling secure, they can be eventually persuaded to act in some milder fantasies and in doing so, because they broke from their hardened mold, Scorpios often boast of their prowess like a game in heat. What is very telling about this sign is that of all the signs, Scorpios find the removal of clothes or a strip-teases most erotic. This represents their mild fantasies of self exposure. It gets them hot! … Even when Scorpios finally do let go and become outward sexual creatures it is written that "they know how to get laid but the sensual, erotic and perverse moments are something fleeting."  … Yes, no sign can better sell itself on how great they are in bed than the Scorpio."

12:40pm  A student writes, “I had an insight I wanted to follow up on.  In my chart, my Saturn and my Jupiter are in opposition.  I suspect Saturn may represent the influence of my father's family, and Jupiter that of my mother's family.  I need to look at it a little more closely.”  ….. Possibly, but on a magickal level it represents YOU, not them. I am against externalizing your chart too much.

Oppositions are always things that we need to reflect upon; signifying stress between two opposing forces in ourselves. This is not a bad thing as much as it is provoking awareness whereas most people take the easy road and will simply ignore things if they can.

In your opposition: first, you need to study the Planets that you are questioning. Jupiter represents ‘expansion’ or how we learn and incorporate our experiences into our personal environment. It is a positive, beneficial planet allowing us to know and recognize opportunities as they become available to us. Saturn, on the other hand, implies the gradual encasement of Self regarding restrictions and limits that are imposed upon us, usually since childhood, which can affect how we function in the world. Saturn, depending upon where it lies in your chart, can easily inform you of serious obstacles. The goal to controlling Saturn, as with Crossing the Abyss, is to develop confidence and stability where necessary on every level.

Your Jupiter is in the Eleventh House ruled by Aquarius (Uranus). In my astrology book I wrote, “This house represents the needs and challenges that we face throughout our life as we try to establish a detached relationship.. Astrologer often miss this point because they’re not Thelemites but to us, a ‘detached relationships’ is not necessarily something ‘separated in a mundane sense’ but something internal that we need to face in regards to all external object. We must learn to place no great importance of one thing over another. We should never sell our soul; to do such implies deviating off the path that we chose for our incarnation in order to unconditionally embrace a distraction. Still, this house has an insatiable thirst for knowledge. The problem is that it easily accepts advice, often gleefully listening but rarely does it act upon it, even if they consider it valid. The reason being is that this house acts like a scientist. It takes everything in but learns more by experience than intellect. There is nothing wrong with this unless a person keeps blowing up glass test-tubes trying to repeat the same experiment in order to see where they’ve gone wrong. Sooner or later the Aquarian has to act ‘rash’ which as Crowley states, “rash and even foolish action is really wiser than the wisdom of deliberation.” In other words, the beacon is broken, pick up the pieces and move on and don’t analyze it to death as to why because it implies you’re standing still. Crowley adds: “The habit of deliberation, which is right, may easily become the habit of temporizing, which is wrong.” In others words, conforming to one’s apparent circumstances is procrastination and it is dangerous for the Aquarius. This house, ruled by an Air sign, can easily keep one’s head in the clouds and because of such, you’ll walk off the cliff! Pay attention to your surroundings so that you don’t make the same mistake over and over again! Traditionally this is the house that is associated with humanitarian organizations; groups, clubs and organizations, of hopes, wishes and shared ideals. Crowley sums this up as being the house of friends.”

Your Saturn lies in Fifth House ruled by Leo (Sun). Of this house I wrote, “This house represents creation and procreation, love affairs and children, as well as a quest for amusement and pleasure. It is the house where you are challenged to develop your creativity, self-esteem and to find enthusiasm and joy in living a life so chosen. Since the Sun rules Leo this is the house of outer expansion and growth. In many cases, since this is a fiery fixed sign, this house characterizes sex for personal enjoyment rather than any sort of a deep meaningful relationship. This house naturally fuels outward kindness, creativity and generosity as the Sun’s light allows growth of all things but if afflicted it can manifest stubbornness, conceit and intolerance as it vomits dogma of self grandeur.”

Now they are in opposition. I can see the obvious, can you?

As for your chart; you’re using Phyllis’, I’d suggest ignoring it. She uses Placidus House System, in our AA we prefer Koch House system.

In an upcoming Astrology issue of CORNELIA I wrote:  “The Koch system, often referred to as the ‘Birth Place’ house system, also uses the notion of time but instead of starting its calculations from the Ascendant as does the Placidus, its calculations begin from the MidHeaven (MC) and sweep downward clockwise. Arguably the main difference in the two systems is that the Ascendant is more important in the Placidus system while the MidHeaven is Key in the Koch. How to define the interpretational difference is that magickally we know that the ego is dual in nature; rooted in Tiphereth and bathed in the above and below. Many astrologers will tell you that the Ascendant or First House rules one’s Ego but, in truth, it rules only the Ego (and images) as presented by the person outwardly into the world; or magickally from the point of the Lower Self or personality in Tiphereth. The MidHeaven, on the other hand, is also linked to the Ego; but in this case it not only signifies the image that one presents to the world but more so ‘what’ internally drives it forward in our incarnation; our ambitions, goals and the direction we take along the path of life. It emphasizes a person’s quest for freedom to do their will, or magickally their True Will which is the purpose behind one’s incarnation. For this reason it is seen from the point of the Higher Self in Tiphereth. In other words, the Placidus system is more of an outward quest from birth [from the Ascendant] while giving insights into the inner person along their journey; emphasis on the outer things first. The Koch system, in contrast, is an inward view (from the midHeaven) looking out at the internal effects of one’s ego on one’s life and for this reason it is very popular in the United States amongst astro-psychologists. It is believed, from a magickal point-of-view, that if reviewing the chart of someone who has been lucky enough to achieve who and what they want to be, the Koch system would seem eminently suitable.”

The Koch is also far more accurate mathematical system and can easily show where Placidus charts error. Planets too close to a cusp can often be in the wrong house. For example: in your Placidus chart your Sun and Venus are shown in the Second House; in Koch this is corrected and they placed in the Third House where they belong.

Well, I hope I’ve given you some food for thought …

           93 93/93 Jerry

11:45am Luna replied, "J 93! wow....Michelle and I are going to print this out. and I am going to take all that you wrote here to heart! thank you! I'll be back to you about this when I either make some headway..or come up for air. xxx 93s Luna" ... & much XXXs back at ya!

11:35am I replied to a bunch of emails that Luna has sent while my computer was 'sleeping.'  ... I wrote, "I love Grady’s poems, especially ‘The Star of the Magi.’ In my biography on Grady Vol.I, Chapter Fifteen ‘The Universe’ starting on pg.199 I wrote about Grady’s 22 poems and their connection to different Thoth cards; of which there are also 22. His poem, The Star of the Magic refers to the card known as The Star, not really The Tower. When you mentioned “reoccuring themes”, these are indeed your daimon trying to tell you something but,  what?

A Chair? In a magickal archtypal sense we’re talking more so a ‘Throne’ and in the Qabalah all thrones should correctly be portrayed as a perfect Cube; often referred to as the Cube of Space; the top of the Cube being the ‘Above’ or the seat of Power and Authority. In original Thoth decks The Emperor and The High Priesstess both sit on Cubes.

You wrote, “we continue to tap into the "Male" astral plane, specifically the outlaw/pirate/punk male channel.” … I don’t think it’s a "Male astral plane” that you’re tapping into in the way that you think.

In magick we learn that the planes reverse. For example: men make poor psychics because of their inability to face the fact that they, being male macho positive + cavemen on this plane, reverse on the Inner Astral Plane and bathed in a feminine negative - energy. Remember, magick teaches us about these two Qualities with the axiom “One We Control, While The Other Controls Us.”  Most men simply cannot relinquish control of the reality to their feminine.

On the other hand, women, who are feminine negative – on the mundane, reverse on the next plane and become masculine or positive + and thus the "Male" astral plane.” 

Now let us consider the mundane world: one of the reasons why men dominate the material world is that all power (+) naturally moves through them in a mundane sense because they too are positive +.   Like attracts like, but this is unhealthy. There needs to be a balance of both + & - in both sexes to magickally function.  … Woman, on the other hand, have all power (+) within and even Crowley’s The Book of The Law (I:15) tells us that it is the Scarlet Woman who has all the power in this Aeon.

As for the “outlaw/pirate/punk” side, I think this might simply be the “Power +” of which you’ve tapped into is using you as a vehicle.  The clue being ‘you.’  Think of your life, your interests, attitude and what makes you tick on ‘this plane’ … the ‘power’ is animating your sub-consciousness of which your reality is but a shadow.  You've been programing your daimon since childhood. Reflect now on your past and ask yourself this, "What have I been teaching it in regards to my whats?"

You asked, "what is this ‘chair’ or throne" that men go sit on in the tower?" ….. To most magicians, Crowley and myself included, The Tower represents the male penis. Earlier I mentioned that The High Priestess sits on the Cube and now I must add that what fuels the penis into getting hard, besides blood on this plane, is ‘Imagination’ on the next plane, which 'Imagination' is the ‘Key Word’ for The High Priestess card. She sits on a Throne within the phallus controlling our Imagination; penis then gets hard and we build another Tower! … You also commented on the Chair symbolism or how “the reason that we are so interested is that we, as women, literally have never been led to this myth in our dreams, our madness, our trances....it seems to be very specific to men.” … Yes, you are correct because of its phallic connections.  But Freud said it best when he uttered how a cigar is not always a phallic reference. Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar. And, on that note, sometime a penis is not necessarily a reference to the little fleshy thing swinging between a man's leg as much as ‘Power’ itself … It is important to never, as Crowley put it, “to cross the planes.”  … Yes, a penis to me is what swings between my legs … while a penis to you is symbolic of the Power that you carry within and all women should look at all Qabalistic symbolism of a phallic image in that Light. ... Just as the man should look upon every female imagery in Thoth cards as their type of internal power.

You also wrote, “The three of us have discussed this at great length over the last decade....we have concluded that our connection to this "current or channel" is not some inverted surface behaviour of ours.  We are "outlaw" women ourselves...counterculture and basically the tom-boy.” … Remember, this New Aeon, the Age of Aquarius is a ‘feminine aeon, not a masculine. The two previous aeons were ruled by masculine energy.   I believe you may simply be tapping into the 93 Current and are learning how to crawl; sooner or later you’ll be standing, walking and then running around. There will be no stopping you then!

You added, “back to the "nutshell" version.....what we are looking for is some sort of intuitive (or researched) info or interpretation of the Chapel Perilous...for, as I said, this myth does not happen to us....we do not understand it...and, after a decade or more of magick, we have a suspicion that if we could understand it better from a male mages point of view that it would help us with our work in general. so....if you have anything come through on this, not only will we incorporate it in our work, but I will draw it into my current drawing, or a new one." ...... Attached are two pages from Robert Anton Wilson’s COSMIC TRIGGER. [being pgs 6-8]

And finally you wrote, “Oh, and Michelle does not understand the ‘tiger’ reference in Grady's poem...she has an intuitive feeling that the tiger or tyger is something important right now.”

There is a Tyger burning bright

A Star seen from between the Trees

"In the forests of the night"

Of Her eternal mysteries!

Consider the poem titled ‘The Tyger’ by the William Blake written around 1794. Grady loved studying historical poetry so he would have known of this. Here are the opening lines:

Tyger! Tyger! burning bright

In the forests of the night,

What immortal hand or eye

Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

In Blake’s case the poem begins with the speaker asking a fearsome tiger what kind of divine being could have created it and then he contemplates himself throughout the poem. In Grady’s case, it is the same introspection. ..... Jung interprets the tiger symbolism for the latent ferocity of the Anima; or one's feminine side which both men and woman have, Qabalistically representing the Sphere of Saturn, or Binah the Dark Mother above the Abyss. Being Saturn, the God who ate his children, Jung said that this image in dreams was often triggered when one feels that one's children [or things you feel obligation to protect] are in danger ... The image of a tiger in China is used to ward off evil.  

Finally, you wrote, “Due to the nature of my artwork, I tend to find more tangible translatable (onto paper) ideas in the pagan based  mythos.....but...the original thrones appear to be in the very beginnings of the Elohim and in Isis. So here I go...bat out of hell into Heaven! any insight or tips as to how to navigate this arena would be very welcome indeed!” …. Answer: Listen to yourself. Everything you’ve been sending has been a great unfoldment of Self.  Your daimon has obviously been whispering in your ears. Why abandon it now?  No two people will ever have the same archetypal imagery or mythos, we share common threads but only your daimon or HGA can truly guide you through Chapel Perilous.

Well, hope I’ve helped a little … and you can share this email of course, like all others.

You have a great week

93 93/93 Jerry"

5:20am Today is the last day of 2007 and if I had to sum up this year all I can say is that it has been hectic; bathed in heart related health issues on my part but very productive all in all. In 2007 we saw the birth of our new AA website [Cornelius93.com] and the demise of the old Red Flame site. Ah, change is stability, or so we learn in magick. On that note shortly after establishing our new website we saw the emergence of our magazine named Cornelia. We have produced fifteen issues in less than one year! 2007 also saw the creation of this very blog in April; which as of today or nine months later, it has 20,450 hits. Our weekly meetings and talks at my apartment are also going very strong and despite some of the foulest weather; people still show up! And our AA lineage itself saw an amazing increase in membership worldwide. Hopefully within the next few months we will have two new Clerk Houses. Yes, it has been a busy year. In the Chinese zodiac this has been the Year of the ‘Fire’ Pig and it’ll actually end on February 6th when we’ll be entering the Year of the Rat. According to the Chinese zodiac the Pig’s motto is : "Its better to give than to receive." On that note it is believed that those who embrace the ‘Fire Pig’ concept breathe new life into everything that they do; if not, death & decay moves like a slow moving fog across everything they touch. True Pigs are motivated individuals who cannot be deterred from a goal once they have set it. Yes, this has been us in 2007 … and on that note I want to thank all our members, initiates, our dearest of friends and even those acquaintances who have all made this year  truly remarkable and one of the best in years! … I also want to remind people that this upcoming Friday January 4th 2008 at 7:00pm, at my apartment, we’ll be celebrating both the NEW YEAR, our accomplishments over the previous and well observe the fact that Jack Parsons began The Babalon Working on this date - bring appropriate offerings; beer, wine & red heads.

5:00am For the history buffs: the Honourable Colonel Thomas Sydney lived at Old Hall, Ranworth, Norfolk, England and it was said that he was a hard-drinking, roisterous huntsman who did not enjoy losing bets. On this particular date in 1770, being the biggest hunting meet of the season, he challenged a neighbor to a race. Half way through the race, and discovering that he was obviously going to lose, Sydney pulled out his pistol and shot his opponent’s horse which caused the rider to be thrown, breaking his neck and killing him instantly. Since no gun was ever found, no charges were filed but everyone knew who fired the shot and even more damaging to Sydney was that he supposedly disappeared shortly afterwards. That is when the legends began; telling stories of how later that very evening after the race, while Sydney was sitting down at the table for dinner, a tall, thin stranger appeared and at the Old Hall, dragged him outside to a waiting horse, threw him across his saddle and galloped off into the darkness. Now, according to the same legend, every year on the 31st of December, the same scene is repeated as the “ghostly stranger” rides upon Old Hall. ….. and, George Sylvester Viereck was born in Munich Germany on this date in 1884. His family emigrated to New York in 1896. He was the author of many books; Nineveh and Other Poems (1907), Confessions of a Barbarian (1910), The Candle and the Flame (1912), Glimpses of the Great (1930), My Flesh and Blood (1931), The Kaiser on Trial (1937) and The Temptation of Jonathan (1938), to name but a few. In 1912 Viereck established The International, a monthly literary magazine of the avant garde, as well as conventional, poets and writers. Its office was located at 1123 Broadway in New York City. At the outset of World War I, in August of 1914, Viereck launched a new publication called The Fatherland. The goal of this weekly magazine was to publicize the German point of view in order to counteract the onslaught of propaganda coming out of England and France. Most important, it was trying to promote the idea of American neutrality. Aleister Crowley met Viereck in 1911. He would later work for him at The International and The Fatherland. It also appears that Viereck knew all about Crowley’s “devil worship” but it didn’t bother him. As he put it, “I knew nothing against him. I do not object to devil worship and I think that a man’s personal life is his own. Hence, any rumors against him which may have reached me had no effect.” In Crowley’s 1936 diaries there is a brief entry on Thursday July 30th, “George Sylvester Viereck to lunch. Saturnus, Rudy, & girl Pat. Viereck will sign affidavit that I had no trouble with authorities in U.S.A. He said also that after [the] war he made friends with our N.I. chiefs, who told him that I had been working for them during the War.” Saturnus is Karl Germer. Viereck died at the age of 77 on March 18, 1962 as a result of a massive cerebral hemorrhage. ….. and of importance, on this date in 1896 Aleister Crowley claims that he officially decided to pursue mysticism and occultism. ….. and finally, Rudolf Steiner’s first Goetheanum in Switzerland was burned down on this date in 1922 by a Nazi arsonist. Goetheanum was an extraordinary wooden building which had gradually been built during the first World War by an international group of volunteers. They all collaborated with local builders and artisans to shape the unique carved forms and structures designed by Steiner himself. It was not Steiner’s intention, however, to build an impressive monument; he thought of architecture as the servant of human life and designed the Goetheanum to support the work of anthroposophy, especially drama and eurythmy. Rudolf Steiner designed a second building, which was completed after his death

Sunday December 30th 2007 – 7:30am I updated my web pages titled "A genealogical voyage with one of the descendants of Captain Aaron Cornelius." After years and years of trying to discover my ancestors in England we finally discovered I'm not British!!!   I'm Dutch!  I always knew there was a reason why I liked tulips and dykes, or is it spelled dike? Either, or, I always thought that my ancestors came from the British Isles and although rumors persisted of a Dutch link, the Netherlands was simply believed to be where the family had moved prior to coming to America. However, this does not seem to be the case. Once we stopped looking in England we discovered the father of Aaron Cornelius (1610 -1695). Aaron is my oldest American kin who first came to this country around 1635. His father's name was Adriaan Cornelius and he was born in Streefkerk, Netherlands on October 9, 1586 and we also know his father, also named Adriaan, who was born in 1565. Yes, I'm slowly edging my family back to the dawn of recorded history and I'm not going to stop until I discover Caveman Cornelius grunting with big club, dragging his wife around by the hair and eating Mammoth steaks; preferably with a little barbecue sauce and a side order of rice!

5:40am For the history buffs: Simon Forman was born on this date at Qusdham, a small village near Wilton, Wiltshire in 1552. He was an Elizabethan astrology, necromancer and ‘alternative’ medical practitioner in London. Many considered him a quack physician and surgeon, who often spent time in jail for occult practices and prescribing dangerous potions. All this being said, the London people held him in high regard, mainly because he bravely stayed in London during a plague outbreak, and supposedly even cured himself and others of the disease. The extensive records of his life, including his many occult experiments are held in the Bodleian Library in Oxford. Oddly, he prophesied his own death the week before it occurred, or so his wife claimed. On the day of his death, a Thursday September 8, 1611, he keeled over in his boat whilst crossing the Thames saying, “Am impost, an impost” before dying. His death was also documented by another astrologer of that time, William Lilly. It seems Simon Forman had also accurately predicted through the use of astrology the exact moment of his own death and on that ill fated day while rowing down the Thames he fell dead at the oars. ….. also of note: Austin Osman Spare was born on this date in London in 1886. His father was a policeman who often worked the night shift and even though money was in short supply, when the young Spare began to show an unusual propensity for drawing and art, they managed to find enough funds to send him to art school. At the age of seven Spare was befriended by a mysterious old women, a sorceress by the name of Mrs. Patterson, whom it was said could change her appearance from that of an old women to that of a young temptress at will. Spare would later refer to this woman as his second mother, his ‘Witch-mother.’ She taught him how to visualize and evoke spirits and elementals to reify his dream imagery and initiated him into witchcraft during a sabbat meeting and gave him his craft name called ‘Zos.’ He took the oath of a Probationer in Aleister Crowley’s AA in 1909, assuming the magical name “YIHOVEAUM” (‘I AM-Aum’). Crowley came to believe that Spare had become a “Black Brother because of his cultivation of self-love through pleasure.” In the 1950s Spare began working on a definitive Grimoire called the Zos Kia Cultus, which was to contain the accumulation of his magical secrets. Austin Osman Spare died in a hospital in London at the age of 67 on May 15, 1956, his Grimoire left unfinished. ….. and finally, on this date in 1947 Major General L. C. Craigie, Director of Research and Development in the USAF, issued an order establishing Project Sign which was the first official organization to investigate UFOs. It’s purpose was to “collect, collate, evaluate and distribute to interested government agencies and contractors all information concerning sightings and phenomena in the atmosphere which can be construed to be of concern to the national security.”

Saturday December 29th 2007 – For the history buffs: the castle of Countess Elizabeth Bathory was raided on this date in 1610 and she is arrested for the murders of over 650 people. Legend has it that she was located in the basement hunched over a mangled body of a young girl, while three other young girls were found bound, gagged and chained to the wall. She was said to have jumped up and yelled, “You shall pay for this intrusion,” thinking it was her servants, but instead she heard as a reply, “ … this is not one of your servants, but the Palatine Prince of Hungary who stands before you and has come in the name of the King to bring justice to these accursed walls.”  ….. also, Albert Pike was born on this date in Boston, Massachusetts in 1809. He was a well-known Masonic author and composer of the ritual for the concordant body, the Scottish Rite, Southern Jurisdiction, he was elected Sovereign Grand Commander of that body in 1859, an office he held until his death on April 2, 1891. ….. and on a tragic note, Edward Gein’s mother, Augusta, died on this date in Wisconsin in 1945. He would leave her room completely as it was the day that she died, thus would be born the legends behind the ‘mother’ in the infamous movie titled Psycho. Shortly after his mother’s death Edward would begin his murderous killing spree. ….. and I should also report that my dear friend Stephen Mace was born on this date in Milford, Connecticut in 1948. He has written such books as Stealing the Fire from Heaven, Squeezing Being, Sorcery as Virtual Mechanics, Nemesis & Other Essays and Sixteen Essays on Magick and the Politics it Implies. It has often been stated that modern Chaos Magic is founded on the works of two magicians; Aleister Crowley and Austin Spare and Steve Mace’s books clearly demonstrates this point. ….. and finally, I should point out that Ann Livingston made her living as an accountant, but she was also a UFO investigator and writer or MUFON and had in fact, published an article entitled Electronic Harassment and Alien Abductions in the November 1993 MUFON Journal. The article was highly critical of Julianne McKinney, director of the Electronic Surveillance Project of the Association of National Security Alumni. McKinney totally regards the UFO phenomena as merely a ploy to cover up experimental machinery or experimental psychology. On this particular day of December 29th, at 7:15 AM, her apartment, which was close to O’Hare airport, in Chicago, Illinois, was lit up brightly by a blinding silver white flash. That very same day as she walked to her car in the parking lot five men dressed in all black suits, accosted her. She described the MIBs (Men in Black) as being almost faceless and carrying long, flashlight-like black objects which rendered her unconscious. She has no recollection of where she was taken, nor could she account for her lost time but shortly afterwards she developed a fast-form of ovarian cancer. This was not her first time abducted but it proved to be the most fatal.

Friday December 28th 2007 - 3:15pm And let me just babble and catch up on some stuff: First, the other day I mentioned that for the purpose of Astrological study any attached photos to emails of pubic areas will be gleefully accepted and scientifically studied. Well, it seems most people can follow directions but, then again, one young thing sent a shot of her butt in a green bikini? I am perplexed. Maybe she's Pisces?

3:00pm I got a copy of the new hardback Teitan Press book from Weisers which is titled INSIDE SOLAR LODGE, OUTSIDE THE LAW by Frater Shiva. Interesting. I'll post a review of it when I'm finished.

2:30pm I think I'm back up and running but I'm not sure ???? It's going to take me the whole weekend to figure out all my loses thanks to my computer crashing. ... The stress has been taking a terrible toll on me. ... What I do know so far is that I lost my ADOBE and a few other programs. I don't have the disks so I can unload them. Boo Hoo. ... I also know that I lost my entire 'Email Address' file on AOL, as well as all in-coming & outgoing mail stored on AOL. Thus, if I haven't copied your emails into a Word file, they're lost! I have no record of what has been coming in or going out for the last three weeks. So, if you don't hear from me within the next two weeks, please send me another email because your previous might have been cast into the Abyss. I also lost my 'Favorite Listings' so many of my favorite websites that I surfed I'll have to find again. Yes, the Gods are cruel and snickering but after two days of computer fixing from Hell [bless you Luis for your help] ... I think I'm about 75% OK.

2:15pm Can people read?  Finally having the opportunity to check my AOL emails I find numerous from friends and etc who have seen the on-line draft of the new catalog and sent requests to have items put on hold. However; my catalogue has a notice in huge letters asking people not to do this and wait until I'm officially ready to release it. ... I have now updated my notice to read : "THIS CATALOGUE IS NOT READY AS YET. ANY AND ALL REQUESTS TO  PUT ITEMS ON HOLD WILL BE IGNORED, I WILL LIST ON MY BLOG WHEN THIS CATALOG IS OFFICIALLY COMPLETED. I ONLY UPLOADED THIS DRAFT BECAUSE, IF I DIDN'T, DUE TO MY COMPUTER CRASHING, I WOULD HAVE LOST WEEKS WORTH OF WORK. STOP SENDING ME EMAILS ABOUT THIS CATALOG AO583."

Thursday Dec. 27th 2007 - 93 ALL! ... AH, THERE IS A SANTA & HE IS OUT FOR REVENGE. I THINK I PISSED HIM OFF. FIRST, MY NOT POSTING OF LATE HAS NOTHING TO DUE WITH HEALTH ISSUES RELATING TO MY HEART. I'M OK. I'M HAVING THIS POSTED FOR ANOTHER AREA BECAUSE MY COMPUTER HAS CRASHED BIG TIME. I CANNOT UP-LOAD MUCH NOR CAN I ANSWER EMAILS. NO TELLING WHEN I'LL BE BACK UP & RUNNING BUT I HOPE BY THE WEEKEND.  LIGHT A CANDLE FOR ME AND I'LL GET TO EVERYONE AS SOON AS I CAN. THANKS.  93 93/93 Jerry

Tuesday December 25th 2007 – 7:30am Regarding breaking 20,000 hits on this blog, Rey Delupos of New Mexico writes, “Excellent news on the impact your blog is having on the community of thelemites and seekers of the Cornelian Wisdom teachings. :) ... That said, thank you for taking the time and making the effort to maintain it. I have really enjoyed reading it and it helps shorten the distance between California and New Mexico. Needless to say, I wish you an excellent Heathen Holiday...and may the mulled wine be sweet, even if it doesn't foam!” ... Answer: Glad you appreciate it; you have a nice 'HeHo' too.

6:00am Well, early on the 22nd during one of my discourses on the shape of female vaginal areas and Zodiac signs I mentioned that for the purpose of study any attached photos to emails of pubic areas will be gleefully accepted and scientifically studied. The very next night Aisha sent a close up her vaginal area attached to a simple email, "“93 Guess who?” Love to you, 93s Aisha.” We then had an amusing email exchange. .... And now today, it's Christmas and when I opened one of my emails from a student up in Seattle I realized that she attached a photo which showed seven beautiful naked women, herself included and their 'pubic' areas! ... She wrote, "Here's a picture of naked women that you can try to guess their astrology signs (I can only confirm mine though..) to make you feel better- Merry X-mas! ; )."  ... Wow! I cannot publish my entire reply but I did note that I "especially enjoyed ‘zooming’ in on the vaginal areas to ‘scientifically’ analysis them but admit, it may be ‘harder’ to figure out the signs than I thought. But, be that hard as it may, I will master it!"  ... Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Claus!

5:00am Well, it's officially. I just checked, my blog has hit 20,034 hits as of Christmas morning! We broke 20,000 in just nine months!

4:45am And, in honor if it being Christmas; here is my LAST joke on the subject that I’m going post until next year.

Question:  What do you get if you cross Christie Brinkley with Santa Claus?

Answer:  A thank you card from Santa.

4:30am For the history buffs: In the early morning hours of this day in 1886, eleven year old Aleister Crowley experimented with his cat, Mrs Hagar, to see if really did have nine lives” He poisoned it, choked it, used chloroform on it, burned it and threw it out the window, amongst other things. Needless-to-say, Crowley was proud of the fact that he proved the superstition was not true. Yes, boys will be boys. ..... also, Robert LeRoy Ripley was born on this date in Santa Rosa, California in 1890. Robert L. Ripley’s Believe It Or Not! cartoon panel was a staple of American newspapers in the first half of the 20th century. The cartoon featured true-life oddities from around the globe, always with the tagline “Believe It... Or Not!” Ripley’s first such cartoon appeared in the New York Globe in 1918. As his readership grew Ripley began traveling abroad to find tidbits for his cartoon; he became famous as a globe-trotting adventurer, eventually claiming visits to 198 different countries. The cartoon’s success spawned radio and TV shows, books and museums which continued into the 21st century.  He died of a heart attack on May 27, 1949. ..... and to continue; Edward Rodman Serling was born on this date in Syracuse, New York in 1924. The world knows him as the television writer Rod Serling; inextricably linked to The Twilight Zone. ..... and speaking of The Twilight Zone, Carlos Aranha was born on this date in born in Cajamarca, Peru in 1925, although he told his wife he was born in 1931 to ‘appear to be younger.’ He also changed his last name to Casteneda in 1959 when he became a U. S. citizen. He was also the best-selling author of a number of books; such as Journey to Ixtlan, which deals with a Mexican Yaqui shaman, named Don Juan Matus, and his pharmacologically induced visions. However, a friend of Castaneda at UCLA declared, “I believe Carlos Castaneda is the greatest psychic fraud of the 20th century.” ..... and finally, I cannot forget to mention that it was a cold Christmas in 1943. One of those typically snowy English winter days which found Grady McMurtry in Aleister Crowley’s apartment at 93 Jermyn Street enjoying a nice dinner. Afterwards, as they were sitting talking and playing chess, there came “a raucous noise at the door.” Crowley looked up saying; “I wonder what in the world that is?”  He slowly got up out of his chair and walked toward the door. Opening it, he found four young English boys engaging in the British festivity of caroling on Christmas Day. It was customary to continue caroling until given money for the service. Crowley, not amused, did what most of us have probably always wanted to do. He slammed the door in their faces, screaming at the top of his lungs “To the lions with them! To the lions with them!” Not surprisingly, that day the kids went away not a penny richer. Whenever Grady told this story, he always joked, “That’s the Aleister Crowley I knew.”

Monday December 24th 2007 – 6:18pm I just checked my blog; it's at exactly 19,948 hits which means, the Gods are cruel, I'm going to break 20,000 hits some time on Christmas!

7:00am And it being Christmas eve, here is a jingle:

T'was the night before Christmas and all through the house,

Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.

The stockings were hung by the chimney with care.

They'd been worn all week and needed the air.

6:45am For the history buffs: Ignatius of Loyola was born on this date in Loyola Castle, Azpeitia, Guipuzcoa, Spain in 1491. He was the youngest of thirteen children and was baptized Iñigo Lopez de Loyola. He was canonized in 1622; declared by Pope Pius XI to be the patron saint of spiritual exercises and retreats. He died on July 31, 1556. ..... and Charles Stansfeld Jones joined the AA on this date in 1909, taking the motto O.I.V.V.I.O, which stands for Unus In Omnibus, Omnia In Uno. Later Aleister Crowley would write that Jones “…tried to improve the Tree of Life by turning the Serpent of Wisdom upside down! Yet he could not even make his scheme symmetrical: his little remaining good sense revolted at the supreme atrocities. Yet he succeeded in reducing the whole Magical Alphabet to nonsense, and showing that he had never understood its real meaning.” ..... also, it was predicted that the ‘Christmas Comet’ known properly as Kohoutek was supposedly going to destroy the Earth on this date in 1973 but if you haven’t noticed; it missed.

Sunday December 23rd 2007 – 8:45am If you want to see a beautiful picture, click HERE and view the latest by Luna titled IN HORUS WE TRUST. I was blown-away when I saw it and I'm eternally grateful that Luna is allowing me to share it with my readers. Thanks!

5:15am I have created a 'second' CONTENTS PAGE where I have moved all the links to my more personal webpages. I am doing this to isolate my life and proclivities from general AA or magickal related things of interest. You can find the link to this new listing at the very bottom of the original CONTENTS PAGE on the photo of me. My personal 'For Sale Catalogue' has been moved to this new link.

5:00am An today’s joke is:

Question: Why do people make snow men instead of snow women?

Answer: It’s because it takes too long to hollow out the head!

4:40am For the history buffs: Joseph Smith was born on this date in Sharon, Vermont in 1805. He grew up on a series of tenant farms in Vermont, New Hampshire, and New York. It is a well-known fact that Joseph Smith read the magical treatise by Francis Barrett called The Magus (1801). From this he learned how to use a ‘crystal’ in order to obtain angelic visions. However, at first, he predominantly sought buried treasure and missing items. All this information came to light when historians realized that Joseph Smith was arrested as a fraudulent ‘glass looker’ and was found guilty in Bainbridge, NY in 1826. Court records clearly state that Joseph Smith, “had a certain stone which he had occasionally looked at to determine where hidden treasures in the bowels of the earth were.” Then, in 1823, Joseph Smith said that he was visited by an angel named Moroni, who told him about an ancient record containing God’s dealings with the former inhabitants of the American continent. How the Angel appeared, whether it was in person or in the crystal, has long been debated. In 1827, Joseph Smith supposedly retrieved these ancient records, which were inscribed on thin golden plates, and shortly afterward he began translating its words by the “gift of God.” The resulting manuscript, known as The Book of Mormon, was published in March 1830. After which he re-buried the golden plates. On April 6, 1830, Joseph Smith organized The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and became its first president. Sadly, Joseph Smith was persecuted much of his adult life and was killed along with his brother Hyrum by a mob in Carthage, Illinois, on June 27, 1844. Arguably there are two ways to look at Joseph Smith’s life. You can either view him as a fraud and an opportunist who shamelessly exploited his religious followers, who was murdered by an angry mob, infuriated by all his crazy beliefs, or, if you are a Mormon, he is the greatest man who ever lived. ..... also, Rev. A. F. A. Woodford died on this date in 1887. He was the person who found the original ‘Golden Dawn Cipher Manuscripts’ in a cupboard where Kenneth Mackenzie, a leading Masonic figure of his time, had stored them before his death. Woodford later showed the manuscripts to Dr. Westcott, due to Westcott’s reputation as being a scholar of ancient lore. He realized that the cipher used in the manuscripts was similar to that used in the 15th century by Abbott Trithemius to encode some of his writings. He then began to translate the manuscripts and soon discovered it contained a series of five condensed Masonic ritualistic grade initiations. Westcott then commissioned S.L. MacGregor Mathers to re-write the rituals into a more workable shape. Is it any wonder that the first governing triad of the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn were these self-same individuals?

Saturday December 22nd 2007 – 11:49am Evelyn from Holland writes, “Your recent Blog entries have made for unusual and amusing reading. For a moment there I thought you were going to advocate personality categories based on individual pubic hair arrangements, be it "au naturel", short back and sides, a landing strip or other styles. Might fuel a bit more debate from a few readers!” ..... I replied, "... glad you have been enjoying the blog. It’s fun to write. The ‘sexual’ issues, either mundane or magickal, usually draw many emails but during the last discourse most of my regulars were noticeably absent and didn’t fire off any replies. Holidays? Be that as it may, I usually only post about 1/10th of the incoming emails; the well written ones which are simply not repetitive babble. I want to keep my blog fresh and funny, not ‘quantity’ ... but [I find this hard to write] ‘quality.’...  If you haven’t guessed, I’m a Cancer, a jovial little Crab born in July: Cancer Sun, Pisces Rising, Scorpio Moon ... it gives me a twisted sense of humor. I amuse myself more than I do others. ... You must have been that fly on the wall here at one of my recent weekly gatherings. The issue of personal 'classifications' of pubic hair actually came up from an astrological point-of-view but we all agreed that it would be a difficult thing to verify. One of my friends joked about this and how, for the ‘magickal’ cause, she’d volunteer a photo of vaginal area as long as her face wasn’t included so she would be anonymous. We chatted long in to the night about trying to classify the shapes by a woman’s hair choices by their astrological sign. Aisha, my little Japanese friend, is a Scorpio, she’s clean shaven, etc. One of the Cancer girls liked hers as a ‘Mohawk.’ It was an amusing talk. But in the end, I kind of put a damper on it by saying as much as I’d like photos of all their vaginas, in reality, I would likely get only a few since most of the women were simply chuckling and although they all thought it a good idea for ‘scientific research’, most said they couldn’t do. Ah, they torture me. ... Still, as twisted as it might sound, a group of the middle aged female OTO woman in San Francisco back in the 1980s actually taught a class on ‘Genitology’ based on their personal research of the female’s vaginal shape, lips, labia etc and hair. It was rather amusing. The OTO is rarely dull in the old days. There was actually an article written up about their classes in the local paper. I have a scanned copy." ..... [JEC: Let me say that any attached photos to emails of pubic areas will be gleefully accepted and scientifically studied but please, don't be shy!]

7:45am And today’s joke is:

A Sunday School teacher of pre-schoolers was concerned that his

students might be a little confused about Jesus Christ because of the

Christmas season emphasis on His birth. He wanted to make sure they

understood that the birth of Jesus occurred a long time ago, etc. So he asked

his class, "Where is Jesus today ?"

Johnny raised his hand and said, "He's in heaven."

Mary was then called on and she answered, "He's in my heart."

And Robert, waving his hand furiously, blurted out, "I know! I know!

He's in our bathroom!!!"

With this answer the whole class got very quiet and they all looked at

the teacher; waiting for a response. The teacher was completely at a loss for

a few very long seconds. He finally gathered his wits and asked Robert why

he believed this.

And Robert said, "Well. ... every morning my father gets up, bangs on

the bathroom door, and yells 'Jesus Christ, are you still in there?'!"

7:30am For the history buffs: The Elizabethan magician John Dee began working with his first ‘medium’ on this date in 1581. His name was Barnabas Saul and although it is said that they saw many visions, Saul would later deny everything and claim that he made it all up. ..... and at 6:06pm on this date in 1939, Aleister Crowley released his pamphlet titled Temperance and at 11:31am on this date in 1942, Aleister Crowley released his pamphlet titled The Fun of the Fair. ..... and finally, Stephen King’s movie titled Carrie opened on this date in theaters in 1976. It is about Carrie White who is an extremely shy young girl, with immense psychokinetic powers, who doesn’t make friends easily. The plot thickens when Carrie has her first ‘period’ in the shower with blood running everywhere and is tormented and taunted viciously by her classmates. The gym teacher’s reaction is to chastise everyone for being so cruel but it's too late, Carrie is already tweaked. One of the girls in shower takes pity on Carrie and gets Tommy Ross, her own boyfriend and the class hunk, to invite her to the senior prom. Meanwhile another girl who has been banned from the prom for her continued aggressive behavior is not as forgiving and plans a trick to embarrass Carrie further in front of the whole school. What she doesn’t realize is that Carrie will lose control if pushed to far and with devastating results on the student populations.

Friday December 21st 2007 – 6:15am In honor of Christmas, consider this joke:

The three wise men arrived to visit the child lying in the manger.

One of the wise men was exceptionally tall and he bumped his head

on the low doorway as he entered the stable.

"Jesus Christ!" he shouted.

With that Joseph quickly turned and said

"Mary, write that down, it's better than Clyde!"

6:00am For the history buffs: Maud Gonne was born on this date in 1866 in Tongham, England, although many historians claim it was on the 20th. She was an Irish patriot, an actress, feminist and one of the original founders of Sinn Fein (We Ourselves) as well as the revolutionary group known as Inghinidhe na hÉireann (Daughters of Ireland) which was a women's republican movement. Together with William Butler Yeats, Maude helped establish the Abbey Theatre in Dublin. Yeats fell madly in love with her and his feelings for her inspired a large number of poems but in 1903 she married a Major in the Irish Brigade named John MacBride. He was later executed on may 5, 1916 for his part in the Easter Rising. She briefly joined The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn in 1891. In 1938 she published her memoirs titled A Servant of the Queen. She died on April 27, 1953 at the age of eighty-eight and was buried in the Republican Plot in Glasnevin Cemetery, Dublin. ..... Also, the author Anthony Dymoke Powell was born in London on this date in 1905. His major work was A Dance to the Music of Time (1951-1975), a series of 12 novels in which the experiences of the narrator Nicholas Jenkins, a writer, are contrasted with those of a ruthless political opportunist named Kenneth Widmerpool. The tone grows more somber and haunting as they age and society changes. Powell’s autobiography, To Keep the Ball Rolling, was published in four volumes between 1977 to 1983. His literary criticisms were published in the volumes Miscellaneous Verdicts (1992) and Under Review (1994). His earliest recollection of Aleister Crowley occurred when he was a young child in 1911. It was a story his mother had told him. It begins with her waiting for a train to take her to a luncheon on the outskirts of London “At the station my mother noticed getting into one of the compartments a man whose appearance made her feel a sudden sense of extreme repulsion. At her destination, this man reappeared on the platform. She found herself almost praying that he would not be her fellow-guest at the luncheon. Needless to say he was. It was the magician, Aleister Crowley.” When Anthony asked his mother what they talked about during the luncheon, she simply replied, “Horrors.” Anthony Powell died in 2000. ..... and on this date in 1995, at about 3 o’clock in the morning near Guanica, Puerto Rivo, 44-year-old Osvaldo Claudio Rosado thought it was a good time to be out washing his car. He was wrong. Something grabbed him from behind. He tried to fight off the intruder and claimed to have seen a black-haired “gorilla” about five feet tall as it ran off toward the woods. Rosado had cuts in his abdomen, possibly torn by fingernails or claws. He had survived the Chupacabra, or “Goat sucker.”

Thursday December 20th 2007 – Question: If Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, a dumb blonde and a smart blonde are walking down the street and they all spot a $20 bill. Who will pick it up? ......... Give up? ......... Answer: The dumb blonde, because there is no such thing as Santa Claus, the tooth fairy or a smart blonde.

For the history buffs: John Bell died on this date in 1820 in Tennessee and there was a small vial containing an unidentified liquid, something he had apparently ingested, was found near the body. When some of the contents were fed to the family cat, the animal died immediately. The bottle was then thrown into the fireplace and a voice was heard saying, “I gave Ol' John a big dose of that last night, and that fixed him.”  Later, at John Bell’s funeral, guests reported hearing a voice laughing. Who was John Bell? His saga begins in 1817 after encountering a strange animal in a cornfield on his property. The animal, described as having had the body of a dog and the head of a rabbit, vanished in thin air after John Bell shot at it. This incident was quickly followed by a series of strange beating and gnawing noises manifesting around, and eventually inside, the Bell residence. After these occurrences, the Bell children said their bedclothes were being regularly pulled off and tossed onto the floor by an invisible intruder, their hair was often being pulled and their faces slapped. Hell had come to the Bell home. Even the future President of the United States, Andrew Jackson, reported these disturbances upon visiting the family in 1819. It was he who proclaimed that it was a ‘witch’ who was responsible. The next day he left and is often quoted as saying, "I'd rather fight the entire British Army than to deal with the Bell Witch." In reality there is no record in Jackson's diaries or anywhere else in the historic record of a visit by him to Red River or the Bell family and the episode is presumed to be simply an amusing tale. ..... and I should also report Dr. William Robert Woodman died on this date in 1891. He was a General practitioner and police surgeon, his greatest interests were gardening and Freemasonry. He was initiated into the  Societas Rosicruciana in Anglia (SRIA) in October 1867 and he succeeded R. W. Little as its Supreme Magus in 1878. Woodman was a founder of The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn (HOGD) with Samuel Liddel MacGregor Mathers and William Wynn Westcott, sometime before February 12, 1888.  He was born in 1828. ..... also, Richard Hodgson, born in Melbourne, Australia in 1855, the president of the American Society for Psychical Research, which studied ESP, died on this date in 1905. ...... Shall I continue? Uri Geller was born on this date in Tel Aviv, Israel in 1946. He calls himself a psychic and is most famous for his claims to be able to bend spoons, keys and other objects with his mind. He claimed that he had visions and that he may have gotten his powers from extraterrestrials. He has sued several people for millions of dollars for calling him a fraud but has lost all the lawsuits. His arch critic has been magician James “The Amazing” Randi, has written a book and numerous articles aimed at demonstrating that Geller is an outright fraud, that he has no psychic powers and that what Geller does amounts to little no more than the parlor tricks of a stage magician. ...... and finally, on December 20, 1968 the infamous Zodiac Killer, California’s most elusive serial killer, began his killing spree in Vallejo by slaying 16 year old Betty Lou Jensen and then her date, 17 year old David Faraday. Although others point out his spree really began two years earlier in October of 1966 but this is debatable. The Zodiac killer claimed he chose his victims based on their astrological signs.

Wednesday December 19th 2007 – 3:50pm I have been super busy this week and without helpers, I'm seemingly falling behind in my duties again! Ah, the life of a Crab! Anyway, I've been preparing a new For Sale catalogue which I hope to get out in early January. It's quite massive; lots of rare Crowleyanity for the Collectors! I'll keep my readers posted when I get ready to release it.

3:30pm I received this email today from Ricardo Flores. He writes, "Jerry, 93! I would like to request membership in the WCCP. After all, I’ve already been tortured, exiled, and even called names for defying oppressive authority in the name of freedom, self-determination, and the principles of Thelema.  So, why not make it official? You have my address.  However, can you make the name in the certificate and card say Koyote? Thanks in advance! The $6.66 membership is on the way! Ricardo 93 93/93." ... Answer. No problem!

7:45am Now here is a really sick Christmas joke:  The holiday season was approaching and a woman was becoming greatly distressed. Her husband had lost all interest in sex and all the various doctors and specialists seemed to give no reason as to why. In desperation she wrote to Santa Claus asking for help. He responded by giving her special sex pills in her stocking on Christmas morning. He also left a note saying, “Put one pill in your husband’s dinner then you’ll have a night of fantastic sex but never to use more than one.” On Christmas morning the woman read the note, looked at the pills and was skeptical but she decided to give it a try. They worked! The woman was so thrilled she used one pill a day for an entire month. One day she thought "Well, all this sex has been great, but what would happen if I gave him all the pills at once?" So, completely forgetting Santa's warning she slipped all the remaining pills in her husband's dinner. Several months later Santa decided to check up on the woman and see how his gift had helped her. A young boy answered the phone and Santa asked him how his mother was enjoying the gift. The little boy said "So you're the one who sent the pills ... well, Mommy's dead, sister's pregnant, my ass hurts, and Daddy's up in the attic going `here kitty kitty"

For the history buffs: On December 19, 1934 the freak Prince Randian, born without all his limbs in British Guyana, South America in 1871 left his last evening show at Sam Wagner’s 14th. Street, collapsed and died at the age of 63. He was brought to America before the turn of the century by legendary showman P. T.  Barnum who billed him as “The Human Caterpillar”, “The Living Torso” or “The Human Worm.” Prince Randian, a Hindu, was said to possess a quiet sense of humor and was able to speak Hindu, English, German and French. His personal philosophy was that no physical handicap need matter if the mind is dominant. He was able to write, paint, shave and roll his own cigarettes using only his tongue and mouth, the latter feat is demonstrated in the film Freaks. Prince Randian’s only dialogue in the film is almost indecipherable, but he apparently remarks to one of the Rollo brothers, “Can you do anything with your eyebrows?” During the carnival’s off-season, Prince Randian resided in Patterson, New Jersey with his devoted wife and several children.

Tuesday December 18th 2007 – 9:48am Michelle writes, “WHAT! You had the nude picks of yourself up all the time! I missed them! ” and lots of etcs which I cannot print. ..... Answer: BIG SMILE. 

9:30 am Dave Miles sent an email early this morning, in it he wrote, “GREAT BLOG READING recently by the way :).”

9:10am Ricardo Flores writes, “Jerry, 93! Wow! A treasure hunt! I had found your link to EW about two weeks ago, but I had missed the JEC. I’m glad I found it after you made us believe you only had the pics of the girls up but not yours (I’m beginning to see that crab walk in your writing—clever, hiding in plain view, huh?). I found it today. I do like your computer art. It is strong, beautiful, and penetrating. One of my students is experimenting with creating moods by altering photographs electronically as well. Quite interesting medium! Ricardo 93 93/93.” ..... Answer: How funny. I actually posted a few photos of me secretly for Aisha, Kel and a few others but I just removed them all Sunday but even though the new page had been up-loaded, it took a while for my server to make it ‘official’ and eliminate all six of the old pages. I don’t understand why, I’m too computer stupid to figure it out. Your email made me quickly look at the EW and low and behold, the new changes are now there. I am confused!?  What did you see?  Anyway, you might have been the last person to see the ‘Jerry photos.’  Unless Aisha posts the one's she downloaded!

7:25am Michelle sent another email stating “I found it!” and she likes my art, thinks it’s “nice” and although I appreciate the thought ... “You should post the pictures of yourself. Im curious as to how Shizuka’s differ from yours of girls.” ... I don’t think many people will want to see a close up of my penis, although Aisha has the one of the photos that I sent to her, printed out and on her refrigerator! Which I find funny. 

6:45am Michelle writes, “Yesterday you mentioned on the blog about your ‘Erotic World’, what is this? I can’t find it listed anywhere on your website. Post the URL.” ..... Answer: In October, while waiting at Long’s Drugstore to pick up my prescription, I met a delightful Asian woman. She had her art portfolio with her and while we were both waiting we chatted, shared artsy stuff and she showed me her art work. She’s into computer generated stuff later blown up to a larger size. All nudes. I posted one of her computer generated images of me on my website awhile back and, on November 18th  after receiving a comment about it, I wrote on my blog, “The original picture was taken and 'mutated into art' by a Japanese artist/photographer named Shizuka using Adobe on the computer. I used the un-colorized version to show my tattoo and I edited out the bottom half of the picture. Her version is 'blue' and quite nice. I love it. Needless-to-say, I am not shy, the blue picture is also a full frontal nude shot of me taken with my pants partially down which I thought not wise to post on my website forum. It shows everything.” ... Her photos of me are of computer generated nude body parts from multiple angles and rather interesting. Although you cannot tell that the body part is mine, I’m not sure the world is ready for these close-up photos. The way I see it, people who have a certain 'image' of who and what Frater AO583 is all about, might have their delicate little world shattered, unlike those who have visited my apartment and simply 'know.' ... Anyway, Shizuka spent a day with me, showing me how to mutate pictures etc & etc. I found it rather easy. Later I took some of my favorite nude photos of women and mutated them into something differently. I got good at it, or at least I was enjoying myself and I posted some of my favorite on a webpage. My images of females are similar to Shizuka’s pictures of me; although her 'style' is definitely different. ... Anyway, like my Ancestral history page, or my Roman coin section, my Joke Page and other similar topics, my computer generated art is more personal than my general AA or magickal postings. ... still, my erotic pictures are listed on my website but I didn't want to 'openly' advertise such but obviously the word is getting out ... but where is the link?

5:25am A friend sent me this quote by Andy Rooney. I enjoyed it, hopefully my readers will too. ... “Over the past few years, more money has been spent on breast implants and Viagra than is spent on Alzheimer's Disease research, it is believed that by the year 2030 there will be a large number of people wandering around with huge breasts and erections - who can't remember what to do with them.”

5:10am In honor of Christmas, here is another of my daily jokes that I’ll be posting until this heathen festival is over with! .... Here is goes: Three men die in a car accident on Christmas eve and they find themselves at the Pearly Gates waiting to enter Heaven. St. Peter tells them that in order to enter they must present something Christmassy. The first man searches his pocket and finds some mistletoe so he is allowed in. The second man presents a folded up Christmas card from his pocket, so he too was allowed in. The third man yanks a pair of panties out of his back pocket and holds them up in the air before St. Peter. Wide eyes and shocked at this last gesture, St. Peter asks "How do these panties represent anything to do with Christmas?" The man smiled and replied - "They're Carol's."

5:00am For the history buffs: Karl Maria Wilgut was born on this date  in Vienna, Austria in 1866. He was a seer throughout his life and his history of schizophrenia, which involved megalomania and paranoid delusions, was the basis for him being ruled insane. In 1933, after he had become ‘sane’ and was released, Wilgut was chosen by Heinrich Himmler to be his private Magus and councilor on magickal and religious subjects, because of his “clairvoyant knowledge of the ancient Germanic past.” He has been called the ‘Rasputin to Himmler.’ It was Wilgut who established Wewelsburg Castle as the ceremonial centre of the SS. Directly after the war Wilgut suffered a stroke which left him partially paralyzed, with loss of speech. He was permitted to journey to his elected homeland where he was again hospitalized, in Salzburg and died on January 3, 1946 ..... and of interest, Charles Frambach Berlitz died on this date at University Hospital in Tamarac at the age of 90 in 2003. He was a noted author of many popular books on unexplained phenomena. He is to be credited with internationally popularizing the phenomena known today as the Bermuda Triangle, due in large part to a book he wrote in 1974. He wrote such books as The Mystery of Atlantis (1969), Mysteries of the Forgotten World (1970), The Bermuda Triangle (1974), The Philadelphia Experiment (1979) and The Roswell Incident (1980), to name but a few.

Monday December 17th 2007 – 6:45pm Thank you Ricardo for the jokes, they are appreciated. I'm starting to collect a whole slew for a new page on just those silly little 'Christians.' Yours will bring much delight!

2:00pm Jeremy writes, “I have to say that I love your historical notes in your blog, but I have been blown away by your knowledge of Christmas lore. I'm really loving it. I even got my girlfriend into it and she dug up a bunch of  interesting readings on some more obscure things like yule fungus which surprised me. I even found an old Lovecraft Christmas poem that you might like.” ..... Answer: Yes, if it’s not too long, send the Christmas poem! & Yule fungus? 

1:40:pm Yes, I agree, “there seems to be splitting hairs when it comes to WANT & WILL.” ... In truth, WILL is the reason for our ‘overall’ type of experience that we chose before incarnating. ... As for the WANT, these are things that we desire on the horizontal level which can be but ‘shadows’ of the WILL. These lesser experiences must be kept under control because if left unchecked they corrupt everything 'around' you. The easiest way to keep things under control is to place no importance on one thing over another. Remember, the world is your playground of experiences, do what thou wilt and if you are offended by another person's proclivities remember that Aleister Crowley clearly says the first rule of Thelema is to let others do their Will first. However, at no time does this mean that you should be forced to do anything that you don't want to do simply because your significant other is claiming its his will and you must conform.

12:15pm John writes, “Why is it so important for you to air ‘personal sexual topics’ more so than just magick on your blog?”  .... Answer: Good question. Magick to me is every single act from moving a pencil across a table, to lifting milk from the refrigerator, to evoking an elemental and equally important - sex. There is no act that is not a magickal act according to Aleister Crowley. You also asked, “Where do you draw the line on your blog?” .... Answer: I don’t. In this Christian oriented society of ours, especially here in America, children look at anything other than the ‘missionary posture’ as perverted. Because of such there is a wealth of topics that are taboo which means that personal bodily exploration and experience often falls by the wayside simply because of childhood programming. ... However, to a magician there is no law beyond do what thou wilt and on that note: I will not shy away from talking on subjects which are bathed in old aeonic ‘restriction’ because remember, “The word of Sin is Restriction.” (AL I:41). Our bodies are a Temple that each one of us has been given to house the Holy Spirit. Let no person or religion tell you how to tend to its affairs. This is something between you and the gods but from a magickal point-of-view the first and most important thing for the magician is to feel comfortable enough in his skin to talk about their emotions, their feelings and desires, fantasies, their own body and that of their significant other. ... First rule of thumb: KNOW THYSELF.

11:00am In magick you should have no hang-ups but since we’re all incarnating to gain certain experiences I guess being uptight might be a lesson needed for some to overcome and beside just as 'Do what thou wilt' is justifiable in my case, it should be so for others too. On that note: I received an amusing email this morning from a woman telling me that upon ‘exploring’ my website she came across a sneaky little link that I have to my ‘Erotic World’ of computer generated art. It’s almost hidden but she’s gotten use to clicking on things and exploring. I was about to say "Bravo" when I realized that although she found most of my computer art fascinating, one image seemingly had her “appalled if not offended.” ... It details a woman peeing. ... Now she is not the only female who has mentioned finding the idea a man curious about 'females peeing' revolting and for that reason, as a Thelemite, I'd like to address it. First, all I can say is that I’m sorry I offended you ... and second, stop exploring my website! Stick to the magick section, this blog etc & leave my personal web areas alone. ... Anyway, many men will openly say it’s disgusting if there is a woman within hearing distance but alone, amongst his fellow brothers, he’ll almost always admit to the curiosity of wanting to watch. I can attest, most men find the female anatomy on numerous levels fascinating but few will admit it publicly out of fear of being labeled a pervert by friends still bathed in a high school mentality. Some men never grow up. My view is that what goes on behind closed doors is no ones business. You should always remember that a man’s libido is driven by imagery, repetitive nakedness gets boring with the same old, same old adage of simply ‘Insert Member Here’ with an arrow pointing to the slot ... but nothing will get a rise out of the man more than an erotic moment. But the quest to keep things ‘creative & fresh’ is an endless task in a relationship. Each person is different. What one finds offensive another may simply enjoy. Anyway, Ms I'll keep you anonymous, even if the thought of “peeing in front of [your] man” doesn’t arouse you, what harm is there to pee in front of him if he likes it? The world is our playground. Me, on the other hand, I am utterly captivated by the female anatomy, as anyone will attest who has visited my apartment or seen my art but my biggest dilemma has always been with finding a woman who has few hang-ups and enjoys fooling around more than just getting laid. Admittedly, I’m not into pain but I have few scruples otherwise and age has taught me that anyone can have sex, sex is easy but not everyone can have an erotic moment. The last true erotic little experimental creature was my girl friend back in the early 1990s, I have found few since to compare. Sadly, only about half the women in my life have been like her; most have simply been 'adolescent leg spreaders' regardless of their age. There I said it! If that doesn’t isolate half my blog ... nothing will!

7:45am In honor of the fact that Christmas is actually Jesus’ birthday and it has nothing to do with Santa; here is one of my favorite Jesus jokes; although it is technically an Easter joke but its closer to a Christmassy thing than Santa. Anyway, enjoy: 

Question: Why did Jesus cross the road?

Answer: Because he was nailed to a chicken!

OK, I admit it; that was sick. How about this one:

Late one night, a burglar broke into a house that he thought was empty. He tiptoed through the living room but suddenly froze in his tracks when he heard a voice say, "Jesus is watching you."

Silence returned to the house and after a few minutes the burglar again started to creep forward. He again heard. "Jesus is watching you."

Frightened the burglar stopped dead in his tracks. Frantically he looked all around and in a dark corner, he spotted a bird cage. In the cage was a parrot.

Nervously he whispered to the parrot, "Was that you who said, Jesus is watching me?"

"Yes," said the parrot.

The burglar breathed a sigh of relief and asked, "What's your name?"

"Clarence," said the parrot.

"That's a dumb name for a parrot," sneered the burglar. "What idiot named you Clarence?"

In the darkness the parrot replied, "The same idiot who named the Rottweiler Jesus."

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For the history buffs: Dr. William Wynn Westcott was born on this date in 1848. He was a dedicated physician, public servant and Coroner for North East London and author of several medical texts. An active Freemason, he is best remembered for having founded the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn (HOGD) with Samuel Liddel MacGregor Mathers and Dr. William Woodman, sometime before February 12, 1888. This was not a Masonic society but attracted many Freemasons of the day. From 1892 he administered the Societas Rosicruciana in Anglia (SRIA), leaving the Golden Dawn, and its contentious members, to Mathers. After 1910, Westcott had no further involvement with the Golden Dawn. He died on July 30, 1925 in Durban, Republic of  South Africa of Bright’s disease. ..... and Grigori Rasputin died on this date in 1917. He was known as the “mad monk.” He was a wandering peasant and self-styled holy man, who became a favorite of Nicholas II and the Empress Alexandra in 1905 after he laid hands on their son Alexis and apparently healed the boy of hemophilia. Rasputin was soon a fixture in the royal household and a particular confidante to Alexandra. Wild-eyed and unkempt, Rasputin was strangely charismatic and his personal magnetism was legendary; at the same time his bouts of drinking, womanizing, and wild behavior created a scandal in Russian society. He was finally killed in 1917 by a cabal of aristocrats who feared Rasputin’s influence had grown too great. Rasputin’s death became the stuff of legend: assassins fed him enough poisoned cakes and wine to kill ten, and when the poison failed to kill Rasputin they shot him and beat him. Still Rasputin didn’t die, until finally the men bound him and tossed him into the Neva River, where, after his body had been recovered, the autopsy showed that he drowned. ..... also, Leonard H. Stringfield was born on this date in 1920. He was the American UFO pioneer who founded ‘Civilian Research, Interplanetary Flying Objects’ (CRIFO) in 1954. His most famous book was Situation Red: The UFO Siege (1977). He died on December 18, 1994 in his home in Cincinnati, Ohio, from lung cancer. ..... and finally, I should mention that it was on this date in 1960 that Carlos Castaneda, a graduate student in anthropology doing research on medicinal plants used by Indians of the Southwest, visited the home of a Yaqui Indian named Don Juan in Arizona, for the first time. Shortly afterwards Don Juan made Castaneda a sorcerer’s apprentice and introduced him to the world of peyote and visions; where he would learn the art of a diablero, or a sorcerer with the ability to shape shift. However, although most people believe that what Castaneda wrote was truly brilliant and entertaining, they also argue that it is hardly factual.

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