~ May 1st - 20th, 2008 ~

(the latest entries are always added to the top)

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. - AL I:40

Tuesday May 20th 2008 – 5:40pm I just replied to Carol - "It's not that I don't like a vegetarian meal it's just that I believe that it can be vastly improved with greasy animal fat products and salt, washed down with a beer. What's the problem?"

3:30pm Fra. Aur Thelema responded to my previous posting about Bryan writing, “Your response to Bryan this morning, particularly because I realize I've gotten a lot of my information on Kundry over the years from him, cleared up things a lot. It got me thinking about the Yi King, Kundry and my own relationships. The Yi in general seems to tell the story of Yang being overtaken by Yin and then Yang returning to dominance again. Yang can be seen as Will and the Higher and Yin as Want and the Lower. Things are ordered and right when Yang dominates. When Yin dominates things fall apart. I've found in my own relationship cycle, when I'm single I get to a point where I'm pure Yang. Things are orderly, my spiritual practices are humming along like a turbine, and I'm on the top of my game. When I meet a compatible lady and we get together things are even better. But as you start to get more infatuated and off your guard sometimes it seems like you've become so infatuated with the external feminine or Yin that the internal Yin starts to dominate too and then, like in the Yi, you fall. Too, it seems the relationship falls apart soon after. But as in the Yi it seems like this is the motion of the Universe, a constant cycle that all things are subject too. Are we to never fall or we to just ride the cycle and not let one half of the cycle predominate? Or, alternatively, are we to keep aware of the yin and yang in ourselves and never let Yin dominate? Is one approach for the Inner and one the Outer?” ……. Reply: Too many questions but you are a classic example as to why woman get pissed off at men in the occult; it’s your ‘terminology’ … it’s too Yangy. For starters, Yin and Yang are two poles required for a Balanced Harmony of the Tao; one is not better than the other, just different in its approach. In fact, neither must dominate; that is the secret of the Yi; because if one does, inevitably ‘both’ suffer.  I totally disagree with you concept of the Yang as the Will and the Higher Self while the Yin is the Want and the Lower Self.  It’s spoken like a true man trying to justify why the ‘man’ is greater than the woman and why we must dominate them. In truth, Yin and Yang are Heaven and Earth and as such do you really think Yin (Heaven) is a ‘lower self’ quality? … You also wrote, “Things are ordered and right when Yang dominates.”  You got me choking on my coffee with that one. Do you want Jerri to beat you with a stick?  What a sexist statement! ... Remember - the “Yang moveth, and thus giveth itself up Eternally” as the point, or dot within the circle while the “Yin moveth not, seeking ever to enclose or restrict,” or so Crowley states. These are two qualities necessary for Harmony and they were created by a Universal Force far greater in its understanding and wisdom than our selves. Consider this: on the lowest, most mundane level of Malkuth, the thrusting, moving phallic head of the Yang can easily be encompassed by the circular vaginal walls of the Yin and in their moment of ‘Ecstasy’ Life is born in which you’ll be paying child support for, for at least 18 years. Now, as magicians, or scientists, we study these Law and realize that we cannot ignore them on any plane - As Above, So Below. The Yin encompasses, it’s her nature. Is this wrong?  No.  Without Yin no growth can ever occur.  …. Anyway, I think you missed the point of my May 19th 7:45am posting; you, like Bryan, should stop blaming 'external' forces of the Yin for you, the Yang, becoming ‘entrapped.’ It's part of the Divine Comedy, either you as the ‘Yang’ learn to control 'all external forces' or they control you. The final secret for the Yang; don't worry about controlling the Yin; seek the Tao and therein lies Peace. If you don’t understand that statement; beware of your next girlfriend!

The bottom line: when men dominate women, women hate men

and blame them for everything. 

When women dominate men, men hate women

and blame them for everything. 

Is not the solution obvious?

1:00pm The other day Bryce asked - “Question for you. This just popped in my head for some reason. I've talked to a lot of people about "Old souls", and the like. Three different people, in three different states, all of which meeting me for the first time, and very much spiritual people, told me I had an "Old Soul".  Was curious as to your take on this concept.  I guess it could make sense. When you think about reincarnation. I know I've always felt a strong connection to the past. Which, when young, translated first into, "I don't belong here, this is not what I should be doing." And other such thoughts. (I did a great deal of just thinking and meditating as a kid and young adult.) I think Thelema actually saved me from many more years of headaches. It seems now I have the proper tools to answer all the questions I had as a child. Not to mention the questions I kept asking the Nuns and Priests, whom just turned their cheeks. LOL  Big surprise.” ……. Reply: I would not place too much importance on it. Thanks to the New Age movement people throw around the term ‘Old Soul’ like water without realizing the implications. It has been reduced to simply meaning that in spite of a person’s age they have an air about them that suggests inherent wisdom that usually comes only from life experience and if a person is unable to pin-point the source in this incarnation they say it must have been gained over previous incarnation - thus 'Old Soul' ... But how others come by calling a person an ‘Old Soul’ is often ambiguous, simply a rash statement implying you’re smarter than they and thus I find it simply too broad a statement without scientific analysis or verification. 

6:00am The Sun enters Gemini today, Moon is in Sagittarius.

5:45am For the history buffs: On this date in 1920 Adolf Hitler unveils for the first time the new emblem of the German Workers Party, the Swastika. ….. and on this date in 1996, in Tres Coracoes Brazil, a biology student named Ildo Gardino was driving to Varginha when after a sharp bend in the road he saw a creature, slightly bent forward, trying to cross the road in between a pasture and the woods. As he slowed his car the headlights hit directly on the creature and Ildo noticed that it was covered with dark brown hair and that it had large red eyes that glowed as if reflective. In a protective manner it covered its face with its hand and crouched down at which point Ildo could make out little horns on the creature’s head. When the car approached closer the creature blotted toward the woods where it had first come from.

Monday May 19th 2008 – 9:20pm The astrologer Luis Alvarado sent me an email tonight which had me wondering. He writes, and I quote - “Hi Jerry: 93. I was reading your blog about coming back in your next lifetime as a Pisces..... It seems to me, given that I predict you will marry a third time, that perhaps your next Bride will be a Pisces, at least checking out your birth chart over the next year. Actually, since you have Pisces rising, their Sun in your first house would warm the cockles of your heart. Wouldn' that be just desserts! So you be nice to them Pisces folks, cause one of them may turn out to be your ....wife. Take care. 93."

9:00pm Jay writes, "Hooray for Frater Petros and the Leaping Laughter Clerk House! To err is human, to laugh is godly. Interestingly Ben picked the name from what very well may be my favorite passage of Liber Al. Either that or "Existence is pure joy" etc. II:9."

4:30pm Jerri sent a great email this morning, ending it with a comment on my 7:45am posting - "by the way, I too heard you say that you wanted to come back as a Pisces in your next life! You said it at the celebration of the 3-days at Ben's house..." ...... Reply: Yes, but at Ben's house I was talking about myself. Bryan, on the other hand, is an Aquarius who is easily sidetracked by poontang. He doesn't need to come back as a Water sign like Pisces; he's needs to come back as a Fire Sign.

4:20pm Frater AOM writes, "From the Queen of Heaven Clerk House to the Leaping Laughter Clerk House, I wish to extend my congratulations to Frater Petros -- may he be the rock of his Truth and may his Clerk House shine brightly! So mote it be! ... Fraternally in L.V.X."

2:00pm Let me send out my warmest congratulations to the latest Clerk House to be established in Grady Louis McMurtry's AA; it's called LEAPING LAUGHTER CLERK HOUSE - "Beauty and strength, leaping laughter and delicious languor, force and fire, are of us." - Liber AL II: 20. It is here in Berkeley, California and is run by Frater Petros [P.O.Box 4064, Berkeley, CA. 94704]. 

1:35pm Ed, after reading my May 17th 12:45pm entry, writes, “I couldn't help but think that you have been doing some late night viewing of ‘Naked Lunch’ after reading your blurb about new residents in your apt. building.  Beyond that, my imagination is struggling to "nail down" just what kind of visceral image your were conveying, and inquiring minds want to know.” ….. Reply: She kinda waddled from side to side; an inch or two to the left with her left foot and an inch or two with the right when it lead, rather than walking a straight line down the hall. She was very quiet, almost like a silent ice skater.

8:20am Ah, another person has died here on Durant where I live. What's up lately? A shooting had occurred recently across the street from my house at 2525 Durant which left one dead, one wounded [see my blog May 13 5:15pm] and now a 22-year-old man was found dead on the sidewalk in front of a three-story apartment building at 2605 Durant Ave, one day after he Graduated from the University of California at Berkeley, it seems he fell off the roof.

7:45am Bryan replied to the May 16th 6:45am posting of his email re: Kundrys. He writes, “93 Jerry! A story of inspiration? How about Helen of Troy, one of the biggest Kundry of all? If Achilles (and most of the other Greek heroes from the time) hadn't courted her in the first place, and be made by her father to swear an oath to protect her honor, he (they) would never have had to fight Troy in the first place. The only saving grace Achilles had was his mother, a water nymph who lived at the bottom of the ocean. It may just be that a mother's love is the best way to see the Goddess, at least for the star-crossed Aquarian.” …. Reply: Brilliantly said. Being a Cancer, I understand water nymphs' abilities to soothe! My favorite Japanese Yokai is a water sprite called Kaapa! I loved his portrayal in Miike’s movie The Great Yokai War (2005). In Shinto he would be classified as suijun (water-deities) …. Anyway, I’m digressing, Bryan then adds, “Analytical?  I thought I was offering some generalized insight in order to spare you the Aquarian torture!” …. Reply: And I thought I mentioned the term ‘analytical’ simply to point out the Aquarian mind? …. Bryan adds, “ Oh, well, I suppose I thought about it too much. Ah, but here's the rub.  Relationships / Kundry ARE my Achilles' heel.  As soon as some woman enters my life the gravity gets turned up in my world, and I come crashing down to earth.  Damn being Aquarian!  And too much of a gentleman at that.” ….. Reply: First, it has nothing to do with being a gentleman. Second, you can have many relationships, many girlfriends and friends but that is not your problem. The secret of a Kundry is that most women are unaware that they are or can become such, so what does this tell us? True, a certain ‘type’ is always drawn to a magician in order to test them … but it’s the magician who fails. It’s NEVER the Kundry's fault, it’s always the magician's fault for allowing himself to be trapped and dragged down to forfeit his Will for the Wants of this plane which he accepts as a Kundry. The clue: HE accepts the woman as a Kundry, HE makes them a Kundry, HE is at fault. And if this has occurred it implies that the magician has yet to fully place his lower self (lower-Ruach) under control. It’s impossible for such a person to claim that they know their TRUE WILL if they let others control them! – AL I:44 For pure will, unassuaged of purpose, delivered from the lust of result, is every way perfect. – In other words; if you are doing your TRUE WILL nothing in the Universe, not in Heavens above, or this world below, will be able to stop you. …. And finally Bryan writes, “I think you're right, next life being a Pisces would be much better. … Reply: When did I say come back as a Pisces?  Don’t get me started there!

5:11am Our biggest heart-felt astral hugs, smooches and lots of etcs go out to ‘LUNA’ ... Wondering about her day, I opened The Book of the Law and put my finger on II:9 “Remember all ye that existence is pure joy; that all the sorrows are but as shadows; they pass & are done; but there is that which remains.”  Have a great BIRTHDAY! ... and Luna replies, "Thank you for the birthday cheer! Leigh is baking me a cake from scratch (his first). Gamina and Steven are coming over later. Domino took me on a day trip on Friday."

5:00am There is a Full MOON in Scorpio. … :/

4:55am For the history buffs: On this date in 1536 Anne Boleyn was executed at Tower Green. She spent several years of her childhood at Blickling Hall, Aylsham, in Norfolk, England and those days left her with some of her happiest memories. So much so that every year on  the anniversary of her death, as the legend goes, a phantom coach is said to convey her ghost, carrying her head on her knees, towards Blickling Hall, where the coach and horses are seen to drive very slowly to the front door and then vanish. There are even witnesses who have claimed to see the coach. ..……. And I’d be negligent if I didn’t mention that Albert Fish was born on this date in Washington DC in 1870. He was electrocuted in Sing Sing on January 16, 1936 for numerous ‘Vampire and cannibalistic’ murders which he had committed. Shortly after he murdered ten year old Grace Budd in 1928 he sent the police an unsigned letter claiming, “How sweet her tender little ass was, roasted in the oven.” It took him nine days to eat the entire body and he almost choked according to his own testimony when drinking her blood from her severed head because he gulped it down too fast. …… and speaking of birthdays; Ninette Shumway’s child name Isabella Isis Selene Hecate Artemis Diana Hera Jane, something simply called or Isabella Fraux, was born on this date at Cefalu in 1923. Her father was Baron La Calce, the landlord of the Abbey of Thelema.  ……. And to continue honoring people born on this date; James Donald Walters is an American who was born on this date in Rumania in 1926. In 1948 he joined Self-Realization Fellowship in Los Angeles, changed his name to Swami Kriyananda and actually lived with and became a direct disciple of Paramhansa Yogananda during the last years of its life. After Yogananda’s death Swami Kriyananda left SRF and established Ananada Village in Nevada City, California. He has written over seventy books and over four hundred pieces of music. Kriyananda  is world renowned as a singer, composer, and lecturer and he teaches how to apply spiritual principles to art, music, education, business, relationships, and much more. ……. But with every birth comes a death and on May 19, 1943 at 11:30pm Arthur Edward Waite, English Christian mystic and writer on Masonic and occult subjects, died.  ……. And finally, on May 19, 1946 the seven foot, four inch, André René Roussimoff, better known as Andre the Giant, was born in a small farming community in Grenoble, France. He died of a heart attack on January 27, 1993.

Sunday May 18th 2008 – 12:40pm I received this question from a student - "How long was Crowley actually in the Golden Dawn? He seemed to have learned alot from this group but I get the impression it was not a long period of time in his life." ..... Reply:  Right you are. This is a good question and to answer it let me give you a bit of history : It was during a vacation in Zermatt, Switzerland that Crowley met a gentleman named Julian L. Baker. It seems that both shared a strong interest in alchemy. In time, Baker introduced Crowley to George Cecil Jones who in turn introduced him to The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn. A little over a month after Crowley turned twenty three years old, on November 18th 1898, he joined this organization at Mark Masons' Hall in London and took the magical motto of Perdurabo. Over the next few years, Crowley's life became very complicated. His antics in The Hermetic Order of The Golden Dawn are legendary and by itself would encompass a full volume. Magic had become his life and he progressed rapidly through the degrees of the Golden Dawn, but problems were on the horizon. To make a long story short, they refused to initiate him into the inner, or Second Order. So in early 1900 Crowley left London for Paris and, under the guidance of MacGregor Mathers, he was given initiation into the Second Order as an Adeptus Minor with the new motto Parzival. Upon returning to London, all hell broke loose and the story gets even more complicated. One fact is certain, on March 25th 1900 he received a letter from Mrs. E. A. Hunter stating that the London Second Order of the Golden Dawn did not recognize his initiation in Paris. It was a difficult period, with the end result that Crowley left the Golden Dawn and embarked by ship for New York enroute to Mexico. He had been involved with the Golden Dawn for less than a year and a half.

12:45am It's that time of year when some Berkeley University College students are moving out of my apartment building while others are moving in. I just met a new girl named Kira [I think this is how you spell her name] but after saying goodbye I watched her walked down the hall like a centipede missing 98 legs. There is no other way to describe it.  :/   

11:20am After reading last night's posting on Bill Breeze’s tome THE GENERAL PRINCIPLES OF ASTROLOGY, Jay sent a brief email letting me know that he read it. He writes, "Yeah I noticed that and it's really goddam ridiculous. Anyone who has spent any time reading Crowley should recognize his voice. Makes me wonder how much Breeze really reads Crowley in the first place.” ....... I replied, “It is no secret that Bill Breeze is not a magician, he's a scholar. His AA lineage comes down through Karl Germer who never did a Banishing Ritual in his life. Sadly, although he's a really nice guy, Bill often misses the finer points of a magician's thinking which is very, very obvious in his writings about Aleister Crowley.”

6:00pm For the history buffs: According to some historians, Elias Ashmole, healer and philosopher, died on this date in South Lambeth (virtually London) in 1692. Others place the date of his death as the 19th.  Ashmole was a chemist and antiquarian and some sources credit him as being the first person whose name is recorded as having been made a speculative freemason; this being on October 16, 1646. ……. And I should also point out that Ralph Metzner was born on this date in Berlin in 1936. He worked with Timothy Leary and Richard Alpert to rewrite the Tibetan Book of the Dead as The Psychedelic Experience (1964). He also wrote Maps of Consciousness (1971), Know Your Type (1978), Opening to Inner Light (1986) and The Well of Remembrance: Rediscovering the Earth Wisdom Mythology of Northern Europe (1994). ……. And it was on May 18, 1941 that Louis T. Culling joined the O.T.O. at Agape Lodge in southern California; taking both Minerval and First Degree. He became known as Frater Aquila. …...… and I should mention that Aleister Crowley wrote in his magical diaries on May 18, 1943 “Evan  wrote, inviting me to Tredegar Park” and later he wrote on June 17th, “Arr{ived} Newport about 3. Taxi to T. Park. T. put me in the Oak Room-the best in the house.” Crowley is referring to Evan Frederic Morgan the Welsh poet and aristocrat born in 1893.  He was the last of the Morgans to live in Tredegar House, the old family mansion. The first Viscount, which is a title referring to British nobility ranking between and earl and a baron, was Godfrey Morgan. He rode into ‘the valley of death’ at the Charge of the Light Brigade in the Crimean War. He was succeeded by a nephew, Courtney Morgan. When Courtney died in 1934 his son, Evan, became the new Lord Tredegar. Evan has been called “a great eccentric,” a regular at the Eiffel Tower Restaurant in Percy Street, London along with his friends Augustus John, Aldous Huxley, Ronald Firbank and others like Nancy Cunard, Dylan Thomas, Peter Warlock, Walter Sickert, Nina Hamnett, Thomas Earp and the Sitwells. Nancy Cunard spoke fondly of this restaurant, calling it “our spiritual-carnal home.” When Evans became Lord Tredegar in 1934, and Lord of the estate, he began holding wild weekend parties attended by a curious mixture of the famous and the entirely unknown such as HG Wells, Marchesa Casati, Aleister Crowley, Prince Paul of Greece and Lord Alfred Douglas to name only a few. His menagerie of animals at Tredegar included a boxing kangaroo, a honey bear, baboons that stalked the gardeners, an anteater, pigeons, birds of prey, which were often sent after suspected Nazi spy pigeons, and a parrot named ‘Blue Boy’ who would sit on his shoulder. His problems leading up to why he invited Crowley to Tredegar Park began during World War II when he worked for British Secret Intelligence in an organization known as MI8. The problem began one afternoon, after having lunch with a pretty young girl, Tredegar decided to show her around the office where he worked. This of course meant his office at the top secret branch of MI8. It was a sort of personal guided tour. This was not a smart career move on Evan Morgan’s part because he was immediately arrested and thrown into the Tower of London for treason. In the end, another branch of British Intelligence called MI5 intervened on his behalf and got him released but he was forced into retirement. Tredegar did not go happily and one author wrote, “Tredegar was outraged by his arrest and threatened dire consequences. He retired to his country seat, Tredegar Park in South Wales, and invited Aleister Crowley, the renowned occultist and magician, to prepare a spell. Coincidentally or otherwise, Tredegar’s arresting officer fell painfully ill shortly afterwards and nearly died.” …..…. And finally, on May 18, 1957 Anna Martin, 68, of West Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, was found incinerated in her apartment, leaving only her shoes and a portion of her torso, a classic case of spontaneous human combustion. The medical examiner estimated that temperatures must have reached 1,700 to 2,000 degrees, yet newspapers two feet away were found intact.

Saturday May 17th 2008 – 6:30pm Going through Bill Breeze’s tome THE GENERAL PRINCIPLES OF ASTROLOGY by Aleister Crowley with Evangeline Adams [Boston/York Beach; Weiser Books 2002]  I discovered that he omitted the essay Free Will Versus Destiny which is found at the end of Adam’s book Astrology, Your place in the Sun. [pg.337] But why? Today I discovered in Breeze’s book a section titled ‘Omitted Material’ [pg.553] in which Breeze explains why he omitted the essay ‘Free Will Versus Destiny.’ He claims, and  I quote – “Also omitted is a brief essay on fate and free will which first appeared in Sun, and is much more representative of ‘Adams Philosophy’ (as she termed it) than Crowley’s Thelema.” ... Other than this brief comment I cannot find any indication as to why Breeze, outside of his personal opinion, believes that this piece is written by Adams and not Crowley. However, his statement is utterly ludicrous. Not much is known of Adams’ early education but being from a prime and proper Boston family would have had its advantages; still, we do know that she left her ‘secretarial job’ to pursue astrology full time which does not imply she was given a Cambridge education as was Aleister Crowley. So we must ask ourselves; how can we determine who wrote the essay? For starters, the ‘author’ quotes the poem Invictus by the British poet William Henley (1849-1903), quotes Shakespears’ Julius Ceasar, Charles Fleischer’s Essay on Human Nature, and he even quotes John Dryden’s (1631-1700) classic poem Tyrannick Love; all referencing Free Will and Destiny. This is hardly what we’d expect from Adams. In truth, this essay is probably one of Crowley’s most brilliant and Thelemic astrological essays. He clearly indicates the essence of Greek thought by uttering three classic words: “Character is Destiny.” These words were originally written by Heraclitus in ancient Greece – “Ethos Anthropoi Daimon.” Do you think Adams knew this? Scholars have spent centuries trying to interpret the meaning of those words but one of its most reiterated translations is that of “Man’s character is his daimon” or better put, “Character is Fate.” [James Hillman, The Soul’s Code, NY: Random House 1996 p. 256] In other words; who we are is predetermined by the type of character in which we chose to incarnate but, as the essay points out, astrology clearly informs us that our travels once in this body are not carved in stone. I can only wonder if Bill Breeze ever read this essay, must less understood it?

6:20am For the history buffs: Guido von List died on this date in 1919. It was his writings on the divine nature of the Germanic race, along with Lanz von Liebenfels, whom Adolf Hitler read avidly in the journal titled Ostara. List also published the book titled The Secret of the Runes. ……. And it was on May 17, 1964 out in Brown’s Gulch, about fifteen miles from Butte, Montana, a group of Boy Scouts were awakened about 4 am in the morning by odd noises. Upon peeking out their tent they observed a gigantic Bigfoot rummaging around their camp, which fled they second the boys screamed. It left behind tracks almost twenty inches log by seven inches wide.

Friday May 16th 2008 – 5:15pm The scene: One week after Jerry's death. The wind was howling outside, a tree limb kept beating against the window. A single Candle flickered, casting the darkness into fleeting shadows as two figures sat before an Ouija board.

Jerri slowly placed her hands on the triangular shape of the planchette.

Robert asked, “Should we begin. Try to make contact with him?”

Jerri replied, “OK, I think I’m ready.”

After a while of endless and mindless letter ramblings the planchette

started moving by itself as if driven by some unseen hand. Jeri and

Robert pulled back from the table in utter disbelief,

The first letter the planchette stopped at was S. This was soon followed

by E - L - B and then A. 

Jerri looked up at Robert whose mouth was wide opened and asked,

“What’s he spelling?”

Robert replied, “I don’t know.”

The planchette continued - T - G - E - V - E and then there was a

pause, a pause that seemed like an eternity. Finally it began moving

again T - A - H - L - L - I - T -S and then I. 

With that the candle blew out, a scream was heard; Jerri asked Robert if

he was OK?

After turning on the overhead lights they both tried to decipher the

message but it all seemed to no avail. Robert stood there holding the

pad up to eye level trying to glimmer a meaning to the letters. 

Jerri then noticed the pad in the mirror behind Robert's head and she

looked at the letters written across the paper.

Slowly she looked away, and thought to herself - “That BRAT!”

3:00pm And I know her heart is in the right place and she really is genuinely concerned about me health since my heart attack but she has learned very little about the sign of Cancer. You cannot change this sign from without, only from within their little Hobbit hole! Cancer's are stubborn, resist change and are prone to run and hide rather than accept outside intervention. Jerri, forever the adorable and vivacious Pisces, now replies, "93 Jerry, BRAT! All I can say is--this isn't over. I promise you that! I will let it go for now, but I am a woman--I can hold on to things FOREVER...years down the road, when you are laying in your hospital bed, I will be smiling down at you, spoon feeding you creamed spinach out of baby food jars. You just wait. Wouldn't it just be easier to try something now? Just a thought... :-)  93 93/93 Jerri." ........ My reply: Maybe but then again, I’m enjoying being tortured even though there is no sex involved! Ah, the Gods are snickering. Admittedly, the only ones who have ever effectuated change on me are my girlfriends, and although some outsiders have tried, success is fleeting. My advice, to change a crab you need to understand a crab! ..... p.s. did you know the word ‘brat’ has the same numerical value as ‘beer’ ?

12:52pm OK, I'm over it ... :)-

12:50pm After my last posting about my eating habits, admittedly, I'm ashamed of myself.   :(

12:45pm Jerri from Sacramento read my morning blog entry of 7:12am and writes, "93. Jerry, french fries and beer do not constitute a respectable supper, as you damned well know!!! I've already told you that potatoes don't count (knowing exactly what you would do)!" ...... Reply: Damn! you talked to Robert and he ratted me out! Thanks Robert! .... and then Jerri continues, "Why, why, why are you sidestepping the issue here, Mr. Crabby-cakes?!?! What do you think, it's your life and your body or something?! Well, that's just plain silly...you know, it's not like I suggested you eat rat poison! Come on, you said change was good!!! There's no better time than NOW!! There has to be SOMETHING that you like, finicky or not. Something that you will TRY?? You're telling me you won't even TRY something I bring you? If you are concerned about my wasting my time, you could give me some suggestions (other than the very polite, butt out that you've been trying to...that's not the one I want to hear...damned Pisces, you know...) regarding some veggies?? Maybe even drink some tomato-beer? Take a vitamin? Work with me here... 93 93/93 Jerri." ...... Reply: Tomato beer? Sounds delightfully disgusting. My vitamins of late, with my new meds, have been spiking my blood pressure. I had to stop them. ... I'd like to 'work with you' but I just don't know what to tell you ... I am a crab, a scavenger and forging for food in this area which might be healthy, beneficial or good for me is like trying to find an honest politician in Washington! It’s easier to just be a bottom feeder of whatever presents itself at any given moment when hungry. In fact, I hear a salty barbecued pork lunch with spicy hot sauce calling to me right now!

12:00pm Charles from New York wrote to me on Tuesday, “I just bought a used copy of Red Flame, A Thelemic Research Journal No. 8 on Liber AL vel Legis. I’m told that Bob Stein had a lot of input in it, more than credited, is this correct?” …. Reply: Yes. In truth, I never proofed Marlene’s intro titled The Stops As Thou Wilt before it went to press. She implies that the work is 100% hers but this is very misleading. She did put it all together, the writing and editing and some of the research but the primary research for this edition came from Bob Stein’s brilliant mind, my own research and a few others; none of which she credits - that is not to down play what she did but a lot of what ‘inspired’ Marlene was not her research. It was done years before by Bob and myself. I know that I keep getting emails from time to time from people quoting the 'greatness' of this woman in OTO circles but in truth; since our divorce in 2002 what has she written, published or done? Kinda tells alot, no? As a magician I can tell you that she is a great work horse, a real dynamo but without direction all she has is the legacy when she lived with ME. Again, it kinda tells a lot.

7:12am Jerri, you'd be proud of me last night. I actually had a respectable supper.   [Flores told me to tell you that.]

6:45am Bryan writes a brief email of twenty-one words: "You know one good thing about a Kundry?  If you're good, or lucky, a Kundry can show you your Achilles' heel. That's not to say it's not one hellish lesson." ....... Reply: I know there is story here somewhere of inspiration but Bryan, being an Aquarius, is analytical where only an Aquarian mind is known to roam. My only reply – “Yes.” … followed by – “How’s life?”

6:30am. Re; Ouija Board, I was asked, "Where should I get a board. Is a new one better?" ..... Reply: A new one is actually better because in magick we often thrown around the term 'virgin' in regards to parchment, tools and other items used in ceremonial magick but this basically means 'something that has not been used before'. Most toys stores carry the board; like ToysRUs.

6:15am For the history buffs: The infamous trial of the Theosophist Charles Leadbeater began on this date in 1906. He claimed that his clairvoyant examination of little boys enabled him to know when the children were having ‘sexual difficulties’ and where in need of ‘special’ advice. The prosecutor argued that his advice was merely an excuse to masturbate little boys. ……. And it was on this date in 1934 that a body washed up on shore near the island of Guernsey in Portelet Bay in England. The body was fully clothed and had cycle clips around the bottom of the trousers with all its pockets filled with stones. It was obviously a suicide. The body was later identified as Aleister Crowley’s student, Norman Mudd.

Thursday May 15th 2008 – 11:00pm It’s very late but let me answer Jerri’s email that came in this afternoon. She wrote, , “I am relieved to hear that you are at least willing to try some veggies. Would you please, please, please try to eat some every week at least (I'd like you to eat them every day, but...I know...that would just be an absurd suggestion)? Stay away from that iceburg lettuce though, it doesn't count--it has no nutritional content whatsoever. Potatoes don't qualify either!!! Do you have any preferences as far as vegetables go or are you not sure what you might find appealing? I already have some ideas as far as what I will bring you the next time I see you. I don't mean to be a pain, but I am concerned about you and want to make sure you stay around to put up with me for a while...you're going to need vitamins to help with the headaches! ... about the chicken-flavored broccolli lady--nice. Very nice. :-).”   …….. Reply: Yes, I’ll try veggies but I didn’t mention in which incarnation! [hee hee] I appreciate the offer but I am a Cancer, a very finicky sign of the Zodiac so I wouldn’t suggest just bringing ‘anything’ … it would be appreciated on the spot but it might sit around awhile and grow fungus. I was once known to have gone hungry even though a veggie salad was sitting in my refrigerator! You asked, if I had a ‘veggie preference’ or which I 'might find appealing'? Well, I find a Pisces, Cancer, Scorpio or maybe even a Taurus appealing but in truth I’m willing to experiment with just about any Zodiac sign. Or were you talking about food again, or is there a difference?  :)-   … anyway, I do appreciate your concern but admittedly, I’ll doubt I’ll change too much at this stage of the game.

1:20pm It's about time! Today's NEWS proclaims California Court Voids Gay Marriage Ban - "In a monumental victory for the gay rights movement, the California Supreme Court overturned a voter-approved ban on gay marriage Thursday in a ruling that would allow same-sex couples in the nation's biggest state to tie the knot. Domestic partnerships are not a good enough substitute for marriage, the justices ruled 4-3."  ..... Yes, Thelemic Rights are for everyone!  

12:30pm Jerri responded to my earlier posting, “PLEASE tell me you are joking about the vegetables!! Please!? My GOD, we definitely need to get a woman over there to make some for you--STAT!! Put THAT on your blog--that you are looking for a woman to shove cabbage down your throat, whether you like it or not! You are telling me that you haven't had any veggies in the past YEAR?? Really?? I am completely freaking out right now!! Can you tell? Robert told me that he didn't eat any vegetables a while back, and I practically had a fit in the grocery store---people were laughing and everything----and he doesn't have any heart problems!!! I thought you had cute female assistants to help you out with this stuff? This is one of those very important things they need to help with!!! I know, I know, we are always trying to "change" you guys, but damn!! Is that you don't like them?? I'm sure we can find something that you will like. I am not suggesting that you get all health crazy, I promise...but come on now...mixing in some salad with your beer is certainly not going to hurt you!!! It might even make you feel better! If I made you something and brought it to you, would you try it?? I don't want to have to contact you through the Ouija board...Geez...You met a woman that SMELLED like broccoli...Jerrrrrryyyyyyyyyy!” …….. Reply: Change is a good thing, change is stability but I just never grew a taste for vegetables but that is not to say I won’t eat them. Being single, they’re not my top priority. In my alphabet B comes first, followed by C, then M, S and finally V. [i.e. beer, coffee, meat, salt and vegetables]; anyway, remind me not to go shopping with you. I like the idea of posting on my blog for a ‘woman who’ll take care of me’ but I was hoping for a relationship a little different than one which can shove cabbage my throat.  Ya, I use to have a few good assistances hanging around but haven’t had any since last November, early December. I've been alone for awhile. And no, the Asian girl I mentioned earlier didn’t really smell like broccoli, I was making a joke but she did taste like chicken!

7:48am No, John, “hostiles” is not "a direct reference to woman" but strengthening your aura and etheric current will ‘center’ you and make you far more equipped to deal with things both invisible and visible, like your wife. But remember, not all woman are 'hostiles' ... some are quite to the contrary. … As to your other comment – “… didn’t Crowley teach to drop your jaw and bellow?” … Yes he did but you must learn to Banish ‘yourself’ first, long before you ever extend your energy outward to effectuate change in your surroundings, otherwise, what are you extending? In a paper I wrote back in the late 1970s I wrote: "A clean aura is a beacon of Light which can be thrown out to brighten the darkness and vanquish phantoms." Banishing daily to cleanse one's self does not take long, nor does not require vibrating loudly, it is an internal process. The bottom line; although it might work well with wives, you might need to throw something more than mud at phantoms. 

7:15am Jay writes, "Just a quick question. I've been doing the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram for some time and am now finding my vocal chords are getting quite strained. Any way to prevent that?" ...... Reply: No but unless you're Banishing a full Temple area, do it more softly with visual intent at cleansing your aura or etheric shell. There is little need to "blow-out" the room unless you're getting a feeling of over-bearing negativity. This Friday at the ‘open house’ remind me to show you a ‘short cut’ to Banishing as taught by Crowley; it is far more powerful and continual daily practice will strengthen your aura as if you are building a fortress on the frontier against hostiles!

7:00am I joked with Jerri from Sacramento yesterday, who had been sending me emails [plural] with great McDonalds’ joke, if I was ever going to live down my McDonalds’ episode?  [see May 10th]. She replied, “My harassment of you has more to do with your diet. Are you one of those people that doesn't eat veggies? I really like them and I like how they make my body feel. Don't worry, I'm not a vegetarian! I completely agree with you about not requiring the well preserved body [see my entry of May 13th 6:30am], but we do want you to stay around for a while!! Maybe just mix in a salad or brocolli with the fried foods? Not only am I terribly sensitive emotionally, but physically as well. I wish I was one of those people that could abuse their body without too many ill effects. But, on the other hand, knowing my nature, I'd definitely find out just how far I could push it...I always do. Take care of yourself!” …… Reply: The closest thing to a veggie that I have come to in the last year was this cute Asian girl whom I picked up in a bar. She did smell kind of broccolli-like, does that count?

6:25 Luna writes about herself and Leigh, "93! We have actually been reading "Aleister Crowley and the Ouija Board' both of us, it has taken 10 months to get to reading this AMAZING book of yours, on page 54, if I close my eyes...it reads BETTER than any Clive Barker book I have ever read." ...... Reply: It was a fun book to write. I got my first board [which I still have] back in 1963. I have seen things since childhood that shows me undisputedly that the board bridges the gap between us and THEM. Luckily casual play produces only subconscious mind ramblings in most people who buy the board as a toy but repetitive use, with the simplest of ritual for fifteen or twenty minutes nightly, creates a door and when its opens .......... THEY come.

On October 29th 1917 Aleister Crowley wrote to his student Charles

Stansfeld Jones (aka Frater Achad), “Your Ouija board experiment is

rather fun. You see how very satisfactory it is, but I believe things

improve greatly with practice.” 

6:20am For the history buffs: Lyman Frank Baum, ‘The Man Behind the Curtain’, was born on this date in 1856 in Chittenango, New York,  a small town just east of Syracuse. In 1900 he released The Wonderful Wizard of OZ and then went on to release thirteen other novels based on the places and people of the land of Oz. According to one urban legend about Baum, when the wardrobe department of MGM began to buy costumes for the movie version of The Wizard of OZ (1939), they purchased second hand clothes from rummage sales in and around Hollywood. Actor Frank Morgan who played the Wizard, was given one such second-hand overcoat to wear, and he happened to notice that the lining of the coat had a label saying, “Property of L. Frank Baum.” Although now consider a myth, in early publicity announcement for the movie, MGM emphasized that it was a true story. …… and it was on May 15, 1956 that the artist Austin Osman Spare died in a hospital in London at the age of 67. Years earlier he had taken the oath of a Probationer in the AA in 1909, assuming the magical name “YIHOVEAUM” (following the Kabbalists’ alphabet mysticism).

Wednesday May 14th 2008 – 8:35am Rey Delupos of New Mexico writes - "As for the recent shooting near your home, hopefully you won't have to invest in a flak jacket for Faustus!  :(  Just remember, tuck, duck and roll.  :) ." 

8:10am My friend Dave writes - “Who wants a relationship? As a magician I am not sure that works out. I have had to get up in the middle of the night and do Liber Resh and explain who Khepra was. :)” …. Reply: Actually, as a practicing magician for the better half of forty years, me, I want a relationship! But I want one with someone who understands up front what I am into. I have had great success with this since childhood and have yet to have any girlfriends, whether they’re into it or not, be an obstacle. As for ‘explaining who Khephra is’, why not?  I have found that talking about what I am into not only reinforces my own beliefs but soothes the savage beast’s curiosity. Hummmm, did I just call woman savage beasts? OK, maybe that was the wrong choice of words but you get the picture. Don’t keep them in the dark.  If the shoe were on the other foot, wouldn’t you like to know? 

5:30am For the history buffs: not much to report today except that it was in May 14, 1660 that the widow Robinson of Kidderminster, England, and her two daughters were arrested for using magic to try to prevent the return of Charles II from exile.

Tuesday May 13th 2008 – 5:15pm Ah, the excitement in Bezerkeley! As my son Faustus and I were leaving my apartment we discovered that someone had been shot and killed in an exchanged of gunfire which had begun blocks away and ended in 'Douglas Parking Lot' across the street from my apartment near the restaurant called Top Dog. I guess gang violence is everywhere these days but who would have thought the Telegraph Avenue area? Luis Alvarado immediately sent me an email - "Not the Top Dog! I wonder what happened, they ran out of onions?" .... The U.C. Police Crime Alert automatically sends out email reports. This one reads - "Shooting Top Dog Parking Lot On Durant Avenue" and adds "A shooting occurred today at 3:44 p.m. in the parking lot east of Top Dog located on Durant Avenue. One injured victim is receiving treatment from emergency personnel. UCPD and BPD are investigating. Please stay out of the area." ... In truth, one guy died, another is in the hospital and the shooter is still at large.

8:12am – “Sharon, 93. You sound kinda touchy about my comments that I posted last night, no? Send $50.00 and we’ll spend an hour talking about it! 93 93/93 Jerry”

6:37am I've been asked if my previous Yokai comments [on my blog around mid-April] are not similar to the entities known as Kami in the Shinto religion. I’ve always loved the Shinto faith; it’s so very Thelemic in a twisted way. ... The Yokai are basically folklore ‘demons’ or those apparitions which are neither Kami or ghosts; and regardless of one's Japanese religion, their tales are shared amongst everyone. The Yokai range from being evil to the mischievous; possessing weird shapes, or part animal and part human features; they often have spiritual or supernatural power, and so encounters with them tend to be dangerous. It is believed that each Yōkai has a distinctive motive and agenda from human beings, which are often completely incomprehensible. There are even stories of the yōkai breeding with human beings who’s offspring are known as hanyō. The Historical figure Abe No Seimei, the famous magician, astronomer and Japanese alchemist was said to be born of a human father and a Kitsune (fox) mother named Kuzunoha. ... However, Kami are primarily rooted in Shinto religious beliefs. It is said that humans who die automatically are added to the rank of Kami regardless of their human doings. This tells you alot about the nature of a Kami compared to the Yokai. Although the Kami are 'Gods' they bear little resemblance to the gods of western monotheistic religions. They are regarded as 'spiritual beings' and it is believed that everything from rock, plants, to a river, to food; or everything manifested has a sacred Kami now living in it. It is even believed that there are Guardian Kami of entire families or clans. The Kami in many ways is identical to the Greek daimon. After our death our divine spirit goes on to reincarnate while our daimon, a mischievous creature, forever walks the Earthbirthed within the primary elemental object of its original host. Thus one can only wonder if the Angel and Demon of western faiths; which magick believes are merely two poles of the same swinging pendulum, or the true nature of a single creature known as the daimon, is not similar to the distinction between the concepts behind the Kami and the Yokai, or basically stories about a similar creature viewed from different poles of a pendulum?  

6:30am Regarding my weekend McDonald's episode Ed Wormuth writes, "Someone certainly is watching out for you! You can't get anything worthwhile to eat at McDonalds! Take care of your body and it will take care of you." ..... Reply: I agree but I'm also just renting this body and like an old car that gets you from point A to B, it's the ride that counts not the flashiness of the vehicle. I adhere to the great slogan [slightly re-writen] - "Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, McDonalds in one hand, coffee in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming 'WOO HOO what a ride!'

6:00am For the history buffs: Olaus Wormius, also known as Ole Worm, was born on this date in 1588. He was a Danish physician and antiquarian who collected early literature. He also wrote a number of books on runestones and their lore. He most likely would have remained obsured in occult circles had it not been for H. P. Lovecraft who fictionalize him by name as the translator from the Arabic into Latin of the norotious grimoire known as the Necronomicon. The real Wormius died on August 31, 1654. ……. And it was on this date in 1896 that an unofficial Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn ritual was held by Florence Farr, Allan Bennett, F. L. Gardner and Charles Rosher in which they evoked the great demon Taphthartharath. …….. and on May 13, 1915 H. Spencer Lewis announced the first ‘official’ Rosicrucian convocation of AMORC to be held in the United States. ……. and it was on May 13, 1922 that the Baltimore Talking Board Company filed papers with the U.S. Supreme Court in an attempt to over-ride the lower Court’s decision that the Ouija Board was taxable because of its toy status. The fight had begun two years earlier, in 1920, when the Internal Revenue Service handed the company a tax bill for the Ouija board. The Baltimore Talking Board Company fought hard against this on the grounds that the Ouija was a ‘scientific device’ used as a means of amateur mediumship of a spiritual nature and therefore it should be exempt by its religious status. They took the Internal Revenue Service to court in order to recover a whopping $202.81, which it had protestingly paid in taxes. However, the U. S. Court thought otherwise. It believed that although the board was unique and in a class by itself, it was still being sold in stores as a ‘sporting game’ and therefore taxable. The headlines of the paper read “Nothing Occult in Ouija, Federal Court Rules. Boards are Taxable, according to Opinion Handed Down by Judge Rose.” The company disagreed and appealed the decision but to no avail. The headlines told the story. “Ouija Board is Taxable, Appellate Court Says. Judge Woods, in Richmond, Hands Down Opinion Affirming Baltimore Judgment.” The court stated, that the company “cannot pretend to be ignorant that it [i.e. Ouija] is very largely sold with the expectation that it is to be used as a means social amusement or play and is actually so used. It is true that automatism is the basis for its use, but phenomena of psychical as well as of physical nature may be the basis for amusement and games.” Not to be discouraged, the Baltimore Talking Board Company filed papers, on this date in May of 1922, with the U.S. Supreme Court. Unfortunately the Supreme Court refused to hear their case and sided with the lower court ruling. The local headlines in Baltimore said it all, “The Supreme Court Refuses to Say What It Thinks of Ouija.” The case was officially closed and from this date forth the Ouija has been considered a toy. ……. And finally, it would be negligent of me if I did not mention that Jim Jones was born in Lynn, Indiana on this date in 1933. He would become famous on November 18, 1978 by assisting in the mass suicide of over 900 members of his church in a settlement he had cut out of the Guyanese jungle on the northern coast of South America. 

Question: Why don't you hear any Jim Jones jokes anymore?

Answer: It’s because the punch lines are too long.

Monday May 12th 2008 – 9:30pm I've just gotten a bunch of emails, some redundant but most wanting me to clarify my LOOKING FOR FRIENDSHIP OR LOVE webpage. This page begins by explaining how in this modern computer age, bathed in all its fast-food lunacy, a friend joked with me about finding a new girlfriend or a romantic interest through the modern wonders of Internet technology, as he has done. It is no secret that many of us live hectic lives and spend way too much time hidden away in our homes and apartment game-playing, typing, writing or whatever. But we deserved friendship and love too! Anyway, I adamantly refused to join his on-line dating service but he convinced me to at least 'advertise' my availability in the hope that this old Crab might find someone who might like to share in his Lunacy. The webpage was begun last year as a means to help others, like myself, who are into the occult, magicians, wiccan, or just Thelemites ... to establish either a casual penpal interaction, mere friendships or something far more serious like a romantic or sexual relationships. That was it but it seems no one else wanted to play or came through with wanting to add a bio ...

9:20pm Andy Walker from Japan read today's blog that I posted at 12:15pm and just now writes, "I just wanted to thank you for the insights that you posted on your blog and your warm words. They are appreciated. He's only a week old now and I already see the horns growing on his head :)."  ...... Reply: I might be wrong but I don't think him being a little Taurus has anything to do with the horns! 

8:50pm Mary writes, "... luv'd the semi-nude photo on your personal page, put it back up and add some new ones ... more revealing!" .... Reply: Admittedly, as a Cancer, there is a real perverse side of this old crab if you can coach it out of the hole but I think one photo is enough of me. Although I enjoy history, humor and personal perversity on my blog [after all, it is my blog] I also want to discuss serious magickal theory, astrology and the Laws of Thelema as well and on that note, where is the nude photo you promised me of yourself?

7:20pm Carol writes, "Just saw your comment to Jerri. I loved your bio page ... very sexual, perverse, great semi-nude photo and you wonder why you got crazy woman writing?" ....... Reply: And your point is? I guess 'crazy' was not the right term to use. If they're crazy it's ok; I was just hoping to find a woman who wanted a serious relationship, not a free therapeutic sounding board!

6:47pm Jerri in Sacramento writes - “I just noticed on the upper right hand side of your blog, a little blurb that reads: "looking for friendship or love. click here" Then, you can't click it...I am still laughing.” ….. Reply: Ah, actually the link was originally on my private Cornelius contents page since last year and only recently has it been moved to my blog. The link use to work but I just disconnected it a few days ago because I was getting too many crazy women writing to me. Anyway, that reference to ‘friendship or love’ linked to a Main Page which I created for me and a few friends to post our bios etc as being available and looking for love. But Thelemites and magicians [aka men] love to shoot their mouth off but none of them came through with writing up a personal bio page and after months, the only bio listed is mine as to who I am and what I’m looking for in a woman. Still, I’ve gotten quite a few bites over the months; some of the females who are posting on my blog came through my private webpage but more are looking to correspond just 'intimately' rather than looking for love and thus, so far… nobody loves me.  So I guess love will elude me in this incarnation. Sniffle sniffle.

12:30pm My older brother Gary's son Christian [my nephew] wrote me this morning - "... I really hope that you are taking care of yourself ... several cups of tea a day can be very beneficial. Fruits and vegetables are also very important.  I'm positive that you know about this stuff, but I feel inclined to tell you that poor health can be somewhat reversed with proper nutrition and diet. Have you thought about a trip to New England for a few days? I would LOVE to meet you and I'm certain my father would like to see you, as well as your sisters. Its amazing that I found you, because you were a huge item of curiosity my entire life ..." ....... Reply: First, yes, I'm taking care of myself. I don't eat at McDonalds anymore. Second, I knew that I was the Black Sheep destined for Hell in my God-fearing Mormon family back east but an "item of curiosity" has be chuckling. I wonder what they've been saying about their Uncle Jerry?

12:22pm Jerri from Sacramento writes, "Read the blog...caught up from a couple of days ago. You getting thrown out of the McDonalds is a loud message, practically yelled at you, from beyond that perhaps you shouldn't be eating there?! Have you ever seen the movie Super Size Me?? It will turn you off of McDonalds for a very long time, if not indefinitely ... When did it become racism to call a Mexican a Mexican? Apparently, you just can't imply they are stupid Mexicans ... if you are stupid, you're stupid. If you happen to be Mexican while being stupid, it makes you a stupid Mexican, yes? That kind of backward thinking irritates me to no end ... Ironically, the cop didn't have a problem with the expletive you used ... only the race reference ... I wonder what your Latino students will think ... to know that you are a racist?? Hehehe."

12:15pm Luis Alvarado did up an astrology chart of Andy Walker’s new son [see May 10th 5:53am entry] and he writes, “ … as you can see, he is a triple Taurus. With Grand Trine in Earth (Venus, Saturn, Pluto). Good luck. And a Scorpio father with a Leo mother. Let the games begin! But seriously, he must be just the cutest thing. Keep him warm and touch him a lot and make sure things smell nice and that his environment is soothing, that will help quite a bit for now.” ....... & Jerry's two-cents: I agree with Luis but I want to add that inevitably the Taurus will get older and his Bull-headed stubbornness will kick in. As an example; he will go over the same spot a million times with the vacuum in his 'soothing environment' rather than bending down to pick up the offending crumb. If that don't annoy the crap out of a Scorpio and Leo's common sense, nothing will!  So yes, the games are just beginning. My advice: LEARN ABOUT A TAURUS! You won't survive the long haul if you don't understand this sign and realize that you cannot impose you Zodiac sign's disposition onto him; let him be as he is. Most parents fail to understand that the child's sign may or may not be compatible with theirs. Scorpios have a 50-50 chance of compatibility with a Taurus; a Leo on the other hand, has its relationship with a Taurus rooted in conflict if she is not careful.

9:20am Thinking of Jerri in Sacramento and a few other Pisces friends, I'd like to add this song to my blog:

PISCES FISH

by George Harrison (from Brain Washed 2002)

Rowers gliding on the river

Canadian geese crap along the bank

Back wheel of my bike begins to quiver

The chain is wrapped around the crank

Old ladies, who must be doggie training

Walking, throwing balls, chasing all the sheep

While the farmer stands around, and he's complaining

His mad cows are being put to sleep

And I'm a Pisces fish and the river runs through my soul

Smoke signals from the brewery

Like someone in there found the latest Pope

In a vat of beer that keeps pumping out with fury

While the Church bell ringer's tangled in his rope

There's a temple on an island

I think of all the Gods and what they feel

You can only find them in the deepest silence

I got to get off of this big wheel

And I'm a Pisces fish and the river runs through my soul

I'm a Pisces fish and the river runs through my soul

And I'll be swimming until I can find those waters

That one unbounded ocean of bliss

That's flowing through your parents, sons and daughters

But still an easy thing for us to miss

Blades go skimming through the water

I hear the coxon shouting his instructions about

With this crew oh it could be a tall order

Have we time to sort all of these things out?

Some times my life it seems like fiction

Some of the days it's really quite serene

I'm a living proof of all life's contradictions

One half's going where the other half's just been

And I'm a Pisces fish and the river runs through my soul

I'm a Pisces fish and the river runs through my soul

Mm mm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm mm

I'm a Pisces fish and the river runs through my soul

Mm mm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm mm Composer.

Another song about pisces:

7:20am Luna sent out a copy of her latest artwork to all her friends. She writes, "93OK!? The title of this piece "Star-Spate Venom" was bibliomanced from The Poetry of Grady Louis McMurtry published by Jerry E. Cornelius. I'd been working with this famous image of Leah Hirsig in her studio...surrounded by her wonderful paintings for several hours. As I worked with this drawing....I began to get irritated by how Leah has been trashed (having perused some of the critics sites on Google earlier tonight). I continued to draw her...as I tapped into her akashic records and drew atop of her beautiful image, and, held steady with my own intentions of sucking my own legacy from my own past with her gentle guidance.  I needed some input from Grady  (I suffer from a severe case of "graYdy-itis" that I contracted in July of last year). BABALON!!!!! I picked up my copy of Grady's poetry and bibliomanced the line:  "Reclaim our Heritage" (I do not remember which poem of Grady's this is from) This felt OK!?.......but it wasn't completely right. I continued to sketch atop LOVELY LEAH's photograph....thinking that this title: "Hir, Hirself, and Hersig" might be the right title...but that seemed flat....Leah deserves a better titled vengeance. I again tapped into Grady's Akashic Records and asked: "C'mon Grady...give me a better title" I closed my eyes and randomly opened his book of poems.  I put my finger down, opened my eyes... ...and there in print...at my finger tip was: "Star-Spate Venom" .... "Perfect!" I thanked Grady and laughed out loud...."star-spate venom" is a line from Grady's poem titled:  'The Ark of the Covenant" ....and my alter ego, the pirate Panninggazz has this to say to Lovely Leah: "Leah my love, my beautiful Scarlet Woman...Leah, you can spit shine me any day!!!!!"  Enjoy 93OK!?  )O(  ... P.S. JEC, I know you are crazy busy...but I thought you wouldn't mind to be interrupted for a spell to see my new piece....but maybe you aren't home...maybe you are being 86'd from Wendy's right about now!!!!xoxoxoxo )O(. LEAH IS GAWDESS DOMINOMATRIX!" ............ Reply, while laughing: Wendy's is too far for me to walk with my heart condition but how funny a thought is that? I don't think I'm every going to live down the McDonalds episode [see my blog: May 10th 6:10pm]. You'd think at my age I wouldn't be causing anymore more trouble? ... Anyway, I love your latest picture. Hirsig has always been a favorite of mine. If my readers would like to see Luna's Star-Spate Venom click HERE. If you'd like to actually own some of her artwork then click HERE for details.

6:30am My astrology lesson of the week; how many ‘people’ does it take to Change a Lightbulb?

ARIES: Just one. Wanna make something of it?

TAURUS: Well, I prefer natural light if at all possible. Are you absolutely positive that

lightbulb is burned out? I hate to throw it away if it still might be useful.

GEMINI: Probably one is best, because if there are more than one, they'll get so wrapped

up in talking to each other that they'll forget all about the lightbulb.

CANCER: Only one, but three therapists will be needed to help with the grieving process.

LEO: Leos do not change their own lightbulbs. They find someone else to do it for them.

VIRGO: 1.11111119873, give or take .00000000000013%.

LIBRA: Well, I could do it, unless of course you'd prefer to do it, but you look sort of busy

right now. What do you want to do?

SCORPIO: None, because Scorpios aren't afraid of the dark.

SAGITTARIUS: The sun is shining, the day is young, we've got the rest of our lives ahead

of us and you're worrying about a stupid light bulb?

CAPRICORN: I don't have time for these foolish jokes.

AQUARIUS: Well, you see, energy is really matter and matter is really energy and light is a

form of energy but the light bulb is matter, and--

PISCES: What light bulb?

[This lesson has been inspired by my May 10th 6:10pm blog entry]

5:45am For the history buffs: Wilhelm Reich, who popularized the notion of Orgone Energy, made contact with a UFO on this date in 1954 which he claimed had been hovering over his laboratory in Rangeley, Maine. ……. And it was on May 12, 1970 in Butte Creek Canyon near Chico, California, Clifford Brushshot walked to the well on his farm to get some water and was shocked to see a huge Bigfoot. He shot his .22 caliber rifle at it after it became aggressive by waving its arms and growled at him. The creature fled, making cries of pain. ……. And finally, on May 12, 1996 near Varginha, Brazil a truck driver was turning a curve when his headlights illuminated a short humanoid creature standing in the middle of the road. The driver slammed on the brakes to see the creature raise its hands in a protective manner over its large red glowing eyes. The creature then ran into the woods and disappeared. The truck driver noticed that it had only four fingers on each hand.

Sunday May 11th 2008 – 11:30am Peter Koenig asked - "I heard that in your area there were Masses with the priest dressed up as Batman, the Priestess dressed as Catwoman, and the deacon was Robin. did you ever hear about that, too?” … Reply: It’s a fact, there was a ‘BATMAN MASS’ but it was years ago at Thelema Lodge, OTO back on Sunday March 2nd 1996. Remember the parody that I wrote about the Gnostic Mass called Liber Worth 15 Cents? In Section II titled ‘Of the Actors in the Play’ there is a section I’d like to quote:

The PRIEST.  Bears the Sacred Stick made of something old, something new, something

borrowed and something blue, and he is clothed at first in a plain white robe. Some prefer being

naked, making an excuse that it's symbolically correct rather than the fact that they're too cheap

to purchase a robe, or that they are exhibitionists. Some believe it's up to the Priest rather than

the script which Crowley wrote. Still others prefer a Batman costume.

The PRIESTESS. Should be actually Virago Insupportable or specially dedicated to the service of

the local Community above the Great Order. She is clothed in white, blue and gold, or as Cat

Woman. She bears the old, rusty sword and the Brass Ashtray along with the Hosts, or Cakes of

Light made in a fashion not to resemble anything requested by the official Gnostic Church.

The DEACON. He is clothed in white and yellow, or as Robin. He bears a used copy of the local

Phone Book.

There is more truth in that parody than most people will ever know! The lunacy in the Bay Area was legendary. 

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10:45am Bryce, who has been doing Ouija board rituals based on my book Aleister Crowley and The Ouija Board, writes, "One of the weirdest things for me about the working, was that, afterwards I didn't feel like I should talk. Or, out loud at least. My head was zooming along a million times a minute. I had a very, profound feeling about me. Not real sure how to explain it. Weird none the less.” 

9:40am Andrew West of Sacramento cited page 134 of Grady's bio Vol.II which reads -"There is a Tantric mystery, too philosophically deep for this book, which explains why the male Neophyte attracts the Kundry and the female is exempt from this process." The quote was  followed by a question, “Can you elaborate on this outside the confines of the book?” … This is quite simple; I’ve mentioned the reason in a lengthy blog entry on Friday April 27th 2007 at 10:25am.  You might want to check it out.

5:15am For the history buffs: Jiddu Krishnamurti was born on this datein 1895 in Madanapalle, a small town in south India. He was the eighth child in a middle-class family. At an early age he was adopted by Annie Besant, the President of the Theosophical Society, with had its headquarters in Madras. She took Krishnamurti and his brother Nitya to England where she had them educated privately. Krishnamurti died on February 17, 1986 at the age of 90 in Ojai, California. One of his students once commented that “Listening to Krishnamurti speak was like eating a sandwich made of bread and sand.” Although his writings are far more clear; like when he wrote, “All authority of any kind, especially in the field of thought and understanding, is the most destructive, evil thing. Leaders destroy the followers and followers destroy the leaders. You have to be your own teacher and your own disciple. You have to question everything that man has accepted as valuable, as necessary.” …… and the artist Salvador Felipe Jacinto Dalí I Domenech was born on this date at 8:45am in the small agricultural town of Figueres, Spain in 1904. ….... and William Wallace Webb, astrologer and artist, was born on this date in Seattle, Washington in 1919. It was in 1950 that he boasted his mystical life began. He founded the Philosophic Gnostic Hermetic Society (PGHS) at Joshua Tree in 1963. This group was said to be an independent offshoot of C. F. Russell’s Choronzon Club ….... and it was on May 11, 1923 that Aleister Crowley arrived in Tunis after being expelled from Italy by Mussolini. ….... and finally, on May 11, 1950 Paul Trent took photographs of UFO over his farm in McMinnville, Oregon, which are claimed by many to be the best photographic evidence to support the existence of alien space crafts. Finally, in 1975, Dr. Bruce Maccabee acquired the original negatives and tested them for signs of fraud. None was found.

Saturday May 10th 2008 – 8:40pm Luis Alvarado writes to Andy Walker about his new baby, mentioned this morning in my 5:53am posting. Luis writes, "93. Congratulations! I forget what Sun Sign Ophelia is, but you poor man..... That little boy will be sweet as pie for the first, say, 12 years, then are you in trouble! Actually, I think that makes him a close to New Moon baby, since both Venus and the Moon were also in Taurus. Where in Japan? I will do up a chart and send it with a print out by Grant Lewi. My partner David is a double Moon Taurus and I tell you, one word, intractible, like trying to move a boulder while blowing on it with a straw. But don't let me scare you.... I am really excited for you both. Good job! 93.." ....... JEC's comment: ya, what Luis says!

7:45pm Carol writes, "With your heart, you don't need McDonalds! When was the last time you ate a veggie burger?" ........ Reply: A what?

6:10pm Lets see ... what did Jerry do today here in California? Well, I went to McDonalds for lunch. I was first in line but soon discovered that no one was taking any orders. It seems the female Mexican Manager was chastising some young Mexican boy in Spanish as to how he set up the metal stands and cloth ropes to snake for a waiting line. Another young Mexican girl was trying to ‘assist’ him to do it correctly but to no avail. It seemed everyone behind the counter were either barking out comments in Spanish, laughing or standing around doing absolutely nothing. Nobody was taking any orders nor even trying to make eye contact with a growing line of customers. Now I’m far from prejudice, as anyone will attest who knows me, but finally, getting more disgusted by the minute and after standing there for almost ten minutes, I called out to the Manager, admittedly rather loudly - “How man fucking Mexicans does it take to screw in a light bulb?” I thought it kinda funny; I was trying to make a point but within seconds, and I don’t know where he came from, I was grabbed by my right arm by a rather huge black Cop who said very little but escorted me out of McDonalds for 'starting trouble.'  Yes, I was thrown out of McDonalds today for making ‘racial slurs.’  I couldn’t believe it; thrown out of McDonalds! I’ve never been thrown out of a McDonalds! I wasn’t sure if I should laugh about the incident or spit nails.

6:00am & HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mr. MILES!

5:53am From our dear AA Brother in Japan, I received this email - "93! I just wanted to announce that we've got a new recruit into our "blood-line" :) Gabriel Hiro Castillo Walker was born at 6:12 am (Japan time) on the 6th, so he will be sharing a birthday with Luis. Happy birthday there Luis! Well, technically it was the evening of the 5th over there in th States but I think it still counts for him to share a birthday ;) It was ironic and Ophelia thought that neat too. 93 93/93 -Andy." ...... Reply: We here in America send out greatest congratulations, respect and smiles your way!  Personally, being a dad is a wonderful thing!

5:45am For the history buffs: Fredrick Bernhard Marby was born on this date in 1882. He was the German occultist and rune scholar who believed that man was a sensitive receiver of cosmic waves which animate the Universe and he saw the runes not just as letters but as incantations, or even as gymnastic postures and movements. He died on December 3, 1966. ……. And it was on May 10, 1922 that Reuben Swinburne Clymer assumed the title of Grand Master of the Rosicrucians after the death of the previous world leader, Edward H. Brown. This Rosicrucian fraternity is not to be confused with AMORC. ……. And on May 10, 1941 Hitler’s Deputy, Rudolf Hess, took off for Scotland in his Messerschmitt with a mission of peace between England and Germany. After his capture, Ian Fleming, who worked for Department of Naval Intelligence in Britain, suggested to his boss, Rear Admiral John Godfrey, “that Crowley should be allowed to interview Hess about the role of the occult in Nazism.” Fleming thought Crowley would be able to obtain further details on the influence of astrology with the Nazi leaders. ……. And Karl Germer, the Grand Treasurer General of the Ordo Templi Orientis was arrested on this date in 1940 by the Nazis who had just entered Belgium. He was sent to a concentration camp. He was held until February of 1941. ……. And finally, Sid Vicious was born on this date as John Simon Ritchie in London, England in 1957.

Friday May 9th 2008 – 6:00am For the history buffs: On this date in 1910 Aleister Crowley evoked Bartzabel, the Spirit of Mars, into the body of Victor Neuburg at the Dorset home of G. M. Marston, a high- ranking officer in the Admiralty. ……. Also, on May 9, 1945 Rudolf von Sebottendorff, whose real name was Adam Alfred Rudolf Glauer, the founder of the German Thule Society, committed suicide by jumping off a bridge into the river Bosporus. He was the man known to have provided an ideological basis to Nazism by combining the anti-Semitic activities prevalent in Germany with occultist ideas. His Thule Society slowly transformed from being a religious cult into that of an organization of political activists. ……. And finally, on May 9, 1996 the Espinoza family in Mexico heard something strange out in their front yard around 2 a.m. Upon opening the door they saw a creature about 3 to 4 foot high with scaly skin, clawed hands, eerie red eyes, and a row of spines from the skullcap and down the back. They claimed the creature “mumbled and gestured” before running off.  Later in the morning a seven year old boy in the same house woke to find the creature standing on his bed, he screamed and it leaped toward the window and escaped upon hearing other family members coming. Both the older and younger Espinoza family members described a smell “like a wet dog.”

Thursday May 8th 2008 – 5:45am I was on-line researching when my friend Dave from Florida sent an email. He writes - "Hey Jerry 93! OMG your latest blog post had me rolling in laughter. I love you all the best wishes on your writting efforts. No worries I dont feel neglected. I certainly hope I am not a blueprint for an idiot. :)  Take care my friend. If there is anything I can do please ask 93 93/93 David." ..... Reply: Nope, you're not an idiot, far from it.

5:30am Sorry everyone, I know I haven't been answering many emails these last few days and I probably won't get around to a great deal of them until early next week but I am in the middle of writing some serious chapters on magickal theory in my latest book and I simply need time to focus my thoughts and energy. If this bothers you, or you’re feeling ignored or neglected and you think that I should drop everything to answer your email then you are most likely the kind of person who God used as a blueprint to build an idiot. To the rest of you, I send my love and hugs for your patience and understanding.

5:15am For the history buffs: Although the actual year is not given, this is the actual ‘day’ of the Triffids according to John Wyndham’s 1951 classic novel The Day of the Triffids. ……. Madame Blavatsky died on this day in 1891 in her home at 19 Avenue Road in London. In the end she was unable to walk and she suffered from numerous diseases. Her body was cremated with a third of her ashes remaining in Europe, a third going to America and the final amount being sent to India. Theosophists commemorate her death on May 8, calling it White Lotus Day. ……. And finally, Robert A. Heinlein died peacefully on this date in Carmel California at the age of 80 in 1988. It happened during his morning nap, where he finally succumbed to a combination of emphysema and other related health problems that had plagued him for many years. He was cremated and his ashes were scattered off the coast of California, near his beloved Santa Cruz home of twenty years.

Wednesday May 7th 2008 – 4:45am For the history buffs: Susan Denise Atkins, aka Sadie Mae Glutz, was born on this date in San Gabriel, California in 1948. She was a member of Charles Manson’s Family. ……. And equally important, on this date in Tarcolitos, Costa Rica in 1996, Erlinda Vega reported being attacked by a hideous creature with huge wings that landed on her car and tried grabbing her through a half opened window. She described the creature as resembling a huge bat, but hairy and with bright eyes. Samples of a substance without color and flavor were collected from the window which authorities maintain had to have belonged to the creature.

Tuesday May 6th 2008 – 1:00pm My astrological lesson of the day: here are some great first lines uttered by different zodiac signs after sex ...

Aries: "Okay, let's do it again!"

Taurus: "I'm hungry--pass the pizza."

Gemini: "Have you seen the remote?"

Cancer: "When are we getting married?"

Leo: "Wasn't I fantastic?"

Virgo: "I need to wash the sheets."

Libra: "I liked it if you liked it."

Scorpio: "Perhaps I should untie you."

Sagittarius: "Don't call me--I'll call you."

Capricorn: "Do you have a business card?"

Aquarius: "Now let's try it with our clothes off!"

Pisces: "What did you say your name was again?"

9:25am Jerri from Sacto saw my post of 5:15am today and kinda threatened to beat me with a stick. I guess I deserved it.

8:15am Carol writes regarding the comment that I posted today at 7:40am; six words - "You should be ashamed of yourself!" .... Reply: I guess you're right. I am so ashamed of myself; I should be spanked. Any takers?  :)-

7:50am A friend in Europe asked me a lot of questions about how the OTO here in America was doing. I replied, “I guess you are still interested in learning as much about the OTO under Bill Breeze as you can but there is not much to tell anymore. The Order is simply fading away here in America. The energy is gone; books are not even being published nor any descent newsletters being released. The spark of Thelema that Grady fanned into a flame is being extinguished here in America. This is not to say that the OTO will die or fade away but it’s destined to be yet another shell of any real teachings as with the case of AMORC. Sadly, the OTO will always exist but what made it notorious and gave it legacy is now assigned to the pages of old books talking about the bygone past.” 

7:40am I was asked about an old female Bay Area initiate [not my ex-wife so don’t ask], a friend wrote – “… to me she never said anything nasty about you ! if she ever did (I don’t know) she may have changed her mind meanwhile :-)  is she the 'average' member of the bay area OTO?” … and I replied, “The bad-mouthing that she did was sitting amongst exOTO Bay Area pot and meth heads who don’t like me [because I’m not a drug addict and I didn’t cater to them when I was Lodge Master] and agreeing with their every word, trashing me etc, instead of defending me … all the while getting stoned. This got back to me and I simply don’t want anything to do with her. I detest people who feel the need to be a ‘groupie’ and trash me behind my back but then want to talk nice to me when they meet me as if a friend. … Is she ‘average’ … NO! She’s a bottom feeder. She can only hang around with lowest common denominator since those Thelemites with a life want nothing to do with her.  … What I remember most about her is her laugh; very deep, throaty, like the sound a dog makes just before it throws up.

5:30am I would personally like to send a major HAPPY BIRTHDAY out to Luis Alvardo. He was born on May 6, 1959 in Bayamon, Puerto Rico. He was initiated into the Ordo Templi Orientis at Brocken Mountain Lodge and was later Chartered to run the Harz Camp, O.T.O. in Hartford, Connecticut but this Camp closed when Luis moved to California in March of 1994. He not only knew Grady Louis McMurtry but he is also an AA initiate in his lineage; duly recognized and Charter to run The Throne of The Double-Wanded One Clerk House. It was Chartered in Oakland, California on December 3rd, 1998, the Sun in Sagittarius, the Full Moon in Gemini. The name was chosen from Liber AL vel Legis III:34. He is the author of Psychology, Astrology & Western Magic (1991). ... Luis' website: http://www.lalvarado.com/

5:20am Dave from Florida asks a question about my son, writing - “Do you expose Faustus directly to your teachings? I am wondering when I should start exposing mine. I am not sure when these things are really good to show them. I was thinking after puberty but not sure. What are you thoughts?” ….. Reply: This is a great question. You’ve been to my apartment; how can I keep magick, eroticism or the occult hidden? My son, whether he knows it or not, is being subliminally implanted with archetypal symbology. Basically, as a prepubescent foundation, I am slowly teaching my son Thelemic principles in a non-threatening manner as if societal lessons. As to the ‘source’ of my teachings; my son knows not nor am I really telling him. That is immaterial. Presently, he simply thinks that the guidance he’s getting is coming from his father’s love. Is that not what all children want? And on that note, I’ve always believed in Lao Tzu’s words when raising my son. He wrote, “I have just three things to teach: simplicity, patience, compassion. These three are your greatest treasures.” … My son is now reaching puberty and ready to embrace ‘Do what thou wilt.’  Hopefully I’ve given his enough morals and structure for him to make the right decisions between good and evil. He is also old enough that he’s beginning to ask questions about magick, ghosts and other things. These I will answer. Not with too much info, simplicity is the key and I know that with time he’ll ask more, and more and more intricate questions. I will move at the speed of my son and not at my own pace.

5:15am One of our AA students commented in an email to me - "BTW Jerri in sacto is cute and charming just from the pics. Is she single?" …. I replied, "She’s a Pisces, need I say more?"

5:00am For the history buffs: On this date in 1586 John Dee & Edward Kelly slip out of Prague for Leipzig after hearing rumors of a Papal Nuncios being issued which accuses them of having ‘intercourse with angels’ which could get them thrown in prison, or worse. ……. Also, on May 6, 1678 Catherine Deshayes, who was better known as La Voisin, was condemned to die and, after being tortured for many hours, she was finally burnt alive in the ‘iron chair’ for her crimes in France. …..…. And it should be noted that Sigismund Schlomo Freud was born on this date to a Jewish wool merchant in the small town of Freiberg, which is now part of the Czech Republic in 1856 . At the time of his birth his father was 40 years old while his mother, which was his father’s 3rd wife, was only 20. He gained no great love from his father, who always belittled him but his mother always pampered young Freud. From this he drew his theory of the Oedipus Complex which dealt with a young child’s attachment to the opposite sex parent, while viewing the same sex parent as a rival for the affection of the other parent. In a nutshell, it is best said that Freud’s goal in therapy was simply to make the ‘unconscious conscious.’ …..…. And also of interest; the poet Victor Benjamin Neuburg was born on this date at 129 Highbury Hill, Islington in 1883. Neuburg was present in Africa with Aleister Crowley in 1909 when the Beast evoked the demon Choronzon. During the actual ceremony Choronzon was able to throw sand from the triangle, wherein he stood, into the circle so that a break was made in the circumference. The demon then leaped forth and attacked Neuburg in the form of a ‘naked savage.’ Luckily Neuburg was able to fend him off with divine names and his magickal dagger. Neuburg once had an affair with Ione de Forest (Joan Hayes) who had a role in Crowley’s Rites of Eleusis. For some reason, this infuriated Crowley who later wrote in Magick in Theory and Practice that he once found it necessary to slay a Circe who was bewitching brethren. What Crowley is implying is that he cursed Ione de Forest who, two months after starting affair with Neuburg, committed suicide by shooting herself. Neuburg never forgave Crowley for this treacherous act. He died on May 31, 1940 of tuberculosis. …..…. And Orson Welles  was born on this date in  Kenosha, Wisconsin in 1915. In the early 1920s he formed The Mercury Theater which later became a radio show. He gained famed for a stunt that he pulled on October 30th, 1938. This is when he adapted a live version of H. G. Wells story ‘The War of the Worlds’ but with one important change. The book was to be performed by numerous actors so that it would sound like a real radio news broadcast about an invasion from Mars, a technique that, presumably, was intended to heighten the dramatic effect on Halloween. As the broadcast unfolded the dance music was interrupted a number of times by fake news bulletins reporting that a “huge flaming object” had dropped out of the sky onto a farm near Grovers Mill, New Jersey. At one point in the broadcast an actor in a studio, who was playing a newscaster in the field, described the emergence of one of the aliens from its spacecraft: “Good heavens, something’s wriggling out of the shadow like a gray snake.” The radio broadcast was so convincing that Welles unintentionally fooled people into thinking that Martians had actually invaded Earth. Hundreds of people packed the roads to watch the sky, others hid in cellars, loaded guns, and even wrapped their heads in wet towels as protection from Martian poison gas. Clearly those who missed the opening statements, who had turned into the middle of the broadcast, were oblivious to the fact that they were acting out the role of the panic-stricken public which should have belonged in a radio play and not in the real world. ….…. And finally, it was on May 6, 1938 that The Church of Aphrodite, one of the earliest sources of the divine feminine in the United States, was founded by Reverend Gleb Botkin in West Hempstead, Long Island. He was supposedly “the son of the court physician to the last Russian Tsar.”

Monday May 5th 2008 – 9:25pm And I was asked – “… do you use any online chat programs like AOL online or whatever?” ….. Reply: NO! On-line chats are pure energy drains and I fall behind enough with just my regular emails and I sure as Hell will be sucking pond water with immediate incoming questions and chats. I’ll never get anything done. [p.s. right now I'm still answering April emails!]

8:50pm I received this comment - “I found AC's stuff to be often written in a way or manner I didnt fully synch with. Perhaps because he was born in the turn of the century England and I am a 20th century Tom Sawyer kinda guy. But it always felt like I was reading Shakespeare and not Twain. You really had to work at it.” …… Reply: Yes, Crowley is a difficult man to understand but part of the problem is that he’s writing as if his readers are Cambridge College graduates. Little by little, the more you read, they more you’ll understand.

8:45pm Dave from Florida writes, “One thing I was tossing around with [.....] was republishing the AA materials. I mean the OTO isn't a magical order. I might not be right about this but it would seem that a legitimate school of the AA with charter from AC should have the right to publish and distribute teachings.” … Reply: Actually the OTO owns absolutely no AA material and in fact; the majority of Crowley’s writing in general [especially pre-1923] are in public domain. In a letter to H.Tranker in Germany dated February 20th, 1925 Aleister Crowley writes about the AA stating - “There is no idea of property in the Order, so that the publications are given without questions of copyright." This clearly tells us that the material in this Order is written for humanity, not for any particular person or organizations private financial gain. In fact, anyone claiming otherwise only proves that their NOT AA!

4:00pm Frank, the reference you are looking for is found in the Zohar, The Book of Concealed Mystery. Verse No.40 "... through Daath, or knowledge, whereby wisdom is combined with the understanding, and the beautiful path with his bride the queen.” … And "Daath is the beautiful path." … and in The Lesser Holy Assembly regarding Daath it states No. 296. "And since He is called first-born, therefore it implieth dual offspring."  Remember; everything birthed below the Abyss is bathed in duality and Daath is no exception.

11:00am OK! OK! OK! Stop with the emails already! I know I haven't published my For sale catalogue. I've gotten myself sidetracked again and I simply cannot finish adding about hundred plus items into my FOR SALE Catalogue that I want to; probably won't get to it for a few days. So I've posted what I got!  There is more to come!!!

8:05am I should mention, as Peter Koenig has pointed out this morning, that the 'recipe' that I published yesterday is something slightly mutated from an earlier recipe written back in 2001 by Bryony Murds. The basic ingredients of the old recipe was centered around a roasted 'Bill Heidrick' but the new version lets us use an 'OTO Initiate,' since Heidrick was pushed out of the Order years ago and 'asked' to retire. Other modern changes included substituting Thelema Lodge Calendars, which are no longer published, for OTO Bylaws. Also, jabs have been thrown into the new version to amuse me and my love of all matters modern OTO. I guess when you have a good recipe it is OK to use the basic foundation and ingredients if it tastes good and simply change the meat if the original has been added to an endangered list.

6:20am The new picture in the upper left is that of me and an old friend Ed Wormuth taken yesterday. We both took Minerval initiation into the Ordo Templi Orientis in November of 1977 up in Syracuse, New York. We haven't seen each other in over twenty-five years plus. Of course we had to go the bar Raleigh’s to have a glass or two of beer to reminisce! 

6:00am I know that I promised it to be posted this weekend but the FOR SALE Catalogue has been postponed for at least on more day due to wild and hectic weekend. I’m hiding today, not answering my phone or too many emails and hopefully I’ll finish it up today and post it tomorrow.

5:45am For the history buffs: On this date in 1941 Karl Germer was officially appointed Aleister Crowley’s personal representative of the Ordo Templi Orientis in the United States of America. He had just been released from a Nazi concentration camp, had applied for a visa and, on April 9th, he moved to New York City. Germer’s appointment would become very problematic over the next few years. Placing someone like Germer, a hard-nosed German who admittedly was not an American, in charge of dictating policies and critiquing other people’s life-styles in, of all places, California, was an accident waiting to happen. Even in this day and age most Americans cannot fathom the antics of Californians. Karl Germer was obviously going to have his hands full. …… Also of note: James Branch Cabell, the author of Jurgen (1919) a book which make use of Crowley’s Gnostic Mass, died in his house at 3201 Monument Avenue in Richmond, Virginia on this date in 1958. The cause of death was a cerebral hemorrhage.

Sunday May 4th 2008 – 9:00am This parody of an earlier recipe is not my fault.

Recipe for roast OTO Initiate - en papillote

Ingredients:

1 fresh OTO Initiate (without giblets).

[do not use above IVth Degree as these tend to be old and gritty]

15 kg of peeled onions.

20 copies of the OTO Bylaws.

10 loaves of stale mouldy bread.

1 kg of sagebrush.

500g of elephant garlic, peeled and chopped.

2 kg of unsalted Sabbatic goat-butter.

50g. of black pepper.

50g of sea-salt.

1 kg of cornflour.

2 litres of bleach (Sodium hypochlorite solution).

Water ad lib.

Method:

Strip and clean well the OTO Initiate, making sure to stick one whole onion in its mouth to stop it from making its usual defensive braying noises.

Soak copies of OTO Bylaws in sufficient enough water to cover them in order to make them more palatable otherwise they’re hard to swallow – say in 5 litres.

Peel and quarter the rest of the onions, crumble the stale bread, and mix in a large hip-bath with a broom-handle, slowly incorporating the sagebrush, and half the elephant-garlic, goat-butter, black pepper, and salt. Add sufficient water to bind into a loose dough-like consistency similar to Gnostic Mass wafers.

Stuff your OTO Initiate from the tail end as if it were a XIth Degree, making sure to fill all corners, before crossing the legs to seal and stitching shut.

Rub the rest of the garlic, salt, pepper and butter well into the skin - don't worry about the boils, pustules, and sebaceous exudations, as they will all add to the natural savour. Note: most infectious diseases and bugs will burn off in the oven.  

Place the prepared OTO Initiate (breast side down) in a gigantic roasting-tin, and cover with the damp copies of the OTO Bylaws.

Roast for the first 3 hours in a hot thermonuclear oven (250°C), before turning down to a medium heat (175°C) for the remaining 2 days. Every 2 hours, spray copies of the OTO Bylaws with bleach to keep damp, and be sure to cover because there will be an appalling stench generated.

Five hours before end of cooking-time, remove some of the copies of OTO Bylaws to allow the skin to crisp. (use an oven-glove - be careful not to burn your hands!)

Lift your OTO Initiate out of the roasting-tin, and place to one side in a vast serving-platter for 20 minutes, to rest the meat.

Add corn flour gradually to 2 litres of water in a bucket, whisking to a creamy consistency. Add this mixture to the meat-juices in the roasting-tin over a low heat on an oxy-acetylene stove. Whisk with a leaf-rake while bringing to the boil and season to taste before the gravy thickens. Pour gravy through a garden-sieve into a Leviathan sauce-boat (a watering-can will suffice).

Serving suggestion: Dish up your roast OTO Initiate with boiled Siberian Swede, steamed wild scallions, deep-fried mandrake root, and puréed stable-straw, garnished with soggy if not worthless OTO Bylaws ….. before throwing the lot away in nauseated disgust.

5:45am For the history buffs: On this date in 1939 Maurice Richardson, the well-known British writer and critic who wrote numerous short articles, had lunch with the Great Beast. Crowley’s diary simply records - “1 o’c Maurice Richardson to luncheon....A good lunch: he stayed till after 5.” Richardson described the Beast, who was sixty-three, by stating “His once athletic physique had become blurred by fat. He was bald as a stone, and his huge expanse of naked hairless yellowish face was faintly suggestive of an enormous penis, which is no doubt why the adjective ‘obscene’ has often been applied to it. His eyes protruded like gooseberries.” He candidly goes on to add, “It was difficult not to keep staring at them, though the hypnotic effect clashed with the tartan bow tie.”

Saturday May 3rd 2008 – 1:40pm Ed Wormuth writes re: finishing Volume II of Grady McMurtry's bio In The Name of The Beast - "Finished the 2nd book last night. I would have finished yesterday morning but I was not ready for it to end, so I saved the last few pages for after dinner. Your author friend Cole is in for a treat as the 2nd is even better than the 1st and his remarks on book one are spot on!  OYEZ OYEZ."  .... Reply: Glad you enjoyed it!

6:15am Hopefully I will have the new FOR SALE CATALOGUE posted either late Sunday or early Monday morning; if all goes well, and if my brain holds out and most important, if I don't get too many distractions this weekend! I've been updating and adding lots of new stuff into the catalogue!

6:10am Richard T. Cole the author of the soon to be classic Thelema Revisited, In Seach of Aleister Crowley (Orange Box Books 2007) is in the process of reading my biography on Grady Louis McMurtry titled In The Name of the Beast. Of Volume One he writes - "When McMurtry's biog went to the top of my 'must read immediately list', I approached the task as a 'have to do', rather than a 'want to do', thing (this is not a comment on your writing!) But what a most pleasent surprise Vol 1 has been. I don't recall the last time I enjoyed a book so much (I've just finished it for the second time!) Your writing style is so... enjoyable. There's no bullshit, no padding, not waffle, no 'trying to impress the reader with your formidable' knowledge. It's just 100% goodness and the tale is related in a way which is immediate, hugely enjoyable and massively informative. You completely brought this very complicated man to life (he's flicking fag ash on my carpet right now). Totally enjoyed it and am looking forward to getting to grips with Vol 2. Many, many thanks!" ..... Reply: You're very kind and your comments are much appreciated. I am glad that you are enjoying the bio.

6:00am For the history buffs:  D. J. Conway, the Wiccan author, was born on this date in Hood River, Oregon, to a family of Irish-North Germanic-Native North American descent but I don’t know in what year. [help?].  She has studied the occult for over 35 years. Her quest for knowledge has covered every aspect of Paganism and Wicca to New Age and Eastern philosophies; plus history, the magical arts, philosophy, customs, mythologies and folklore. In 1998, she was voted Best Wiccan and New Age author by Silver Chalice, a Pagan magazine. She lives a rather quiet life, with most of her time spent researching and writing. She wrote such books as: Moon Magic, Dancing With Dragons, Magickal, Mystical Creatures, Celtic Magic, Norse Magic, Animal Magick as well as By Oak, Ash & Thorn and Maiden, Mother, Crone. ……. And shortly before this date the Angel Madimi appeared in the crystal before Edward Kelly and said: “Hear what I say God is the unity of all things.” She then instructed both John Dee and Kelley to share all things, including their wives. And thus it was on this date in 1587 that John Dee and Edward Kelley, along with their wives, put their names to a document swearing to carry out any and all Angelic commands, which meant wife swapping. ..……. And it was on May 3, 1932 that the author Charles Fort died. He left over 30 boxes of weird and bizarre stories which the Fortean Society began publishing in their Fortean Society Magazine, which was created by one of Fort’s few friends, Tiffany Thayer. Its premise was to promote and encourage Fort-like attacks on science and scientists. Charles Fort always claimed that he believed nothing was real and nothing was unreal, that “all phenomena are approximations one way or the other between realness and unrealness.” …..…. And finally, on May 3, 1996 near Calderon Village Sinaloa, in northern Mexico, a giant bat-like creature terrorized the local village. Goats were being found daily with their blood sucked dry and farmers formed nightly vigilante squads. One villager remarked, “We are telling people to keep the women and children locked up inside at night,” adding, “Nobody knows really what it is.” Dozens of goats had fallen victim to this bloodsucker by now and it even allegedly attacked one human. Other dead animals were found in Sonora, Veracruz and Agua Prieta, as well as other areas.

Friday May 2nd 208 – 6:15am For the history buffs: The quintessential Renaissance man best known for his masterpieces of The Last Supper and Mona Lisa, Leonardo da Vinci, died on this date in Cloux, France in 1519. ……. And I should report that Athanasius Kircher was born on this date in Geisa, Abbacy of Fulda, or Thuringia, Germany in 1601. He was sometimes called the last Renaissance man, important for his prodigious activity in disseminating knowledge. He joined the Society of Jesus in 1616. He first read mathematics and philosophy at Würzburg, then moved to Avignon and lastly to Rome, where he was appointed teacher of mathematics at the Collegio Romano c. 1638. A prolific writer of European fame, Kircher authored works on subjects ranging from philology to physics, sacred writings, astronomy, natural history, mathematics, music, Egyptology, geography, and Chinese civilization. His greatest legacy has to do with one of the most well-known symbols in the Qabalah known as Otz Chim, or the Tree of Life. This Tree of Life symbol represents everything about our Universe, both above and below, both externally and internally. This glyph supposedly teaches us the hidden secrets of creation itself. It is important to recognize the fact that the Tree of Life has been evolving over the centuries. Its fundamental shape has undergone many mutations as well as numerous additions. Although there are many archaic drawings portraying the Ten Divine Spheres of God, called the sephiroth, most have a totally different quantity and configuration of paths that unite these spheres. Even the shape of the Tree itself varies. Many people mistakenly think that image of the Tree of Life used amongst today’s magicians and found in most Qabalistic books is of an ancient Jewish glyph  it is not. Although the Tree’s theoretical origins are webbed deep in Judaic lore, its design was actually conceived in the mind of Athanasius Kircher.  While attending the Jesuit College in Rome he devoted most of his life to collecting information from many different religions, observing the Universe, analyzing, synthesizing, and publishing what he learned. His books are filled with a multitude of beautiful illustrations. In one such book titled Oedipus Aegyptiacus (1652) he drew a glyph of the “Sephirothic System” on a Tree of Life as he has ascertained it to be. His drawing clearly shows three pillars comprising of ten spheres, which he connected by twenty-two paths of his own devising while attributing these paths to the Hebrew letters. Hebrew Qabalists so embraced Kircher’s design as being an accurate portrayal of God’s Will that over a period of time it has become acceptable Judaic lore. However, most historians agree, it is Kircher’s design, from the mind of a Christian, which is the earliest rendition of the Tree of Life most readily used today. Kircher died on November 27, 1680 in Rome. ……. And also of note; the only son of Aleister Crowley was born on this date to Patricia ‘Deirdre’ MacAlpine in London in 1937. He was name Aleister Ataturk. In September of 1955 he came to America aboard the Queen Mary and briefly stayed with Karl and Sascha Germer before settling in with the Agape Lodge member named Jean Sihvonen. Ataturk, by this time in his early twenties, would inevitably become her lover. Grady McMurtry once commented upon this relationship, “... what the hell. An older woman & she has a chance like this. For godsake let her have it.” …..... and it was on May 2, 1951 that the movie The Thing opened in theaters. The original sci-fi chiller is about scientists in an Arctic research station who find an alien spaceship buried in the ice. Upon closer examination, they discover the frozen pilot. When the alien is accidentally thawed, it unleashes a rampage of horror. …..... and finally I’d like to report that on May 2, 1996 near the Rio Grande Valley in south Texas, a pet goat was found dead with three puncture wounds in its neck, a ‘telltale mark’ of the “Chupacabra.” On the same day, down in Juarez, Mexico, besides finding the usual slain animals, people reported seeing the creature itself. It was described as a tall creature with three toes and hands, on haunches with the fore arms suspended at chest level very similar to a kangaroo. It was also said to have a row of spikes or straight feather like projections from its head and down its back that raise and lower and have been seen to glow with their own light. People reported it standing upright and running on all fours. One person witnessed the “sucking device” which seemed to be a tube like projection from the creature’s mouth.

Thursday May 1st 2008 – 7:20pm Luna responded to my question about making more flags - "Jerry 93 OK!? … I will go buy me some tranfer paper with the duckets that you gave me for me postcards today...and I will make up some more of these Pirate-y Thelemicke-y Prayer Flags!!! Consider it Done, Master and Commander of the USS Alice!  93sOK!? )O(.”  .... Reply: Yea!!!!  Place your orders guys and gals! 

6:45pm I want to report to my readers that Cora Anderson died yesterday on April 30th, the Sabbat of May Eve, at the age of 93. “Her health had been declining for several years.” She had been bedridden, and wheelchair bound for some time. She was married to Victor Henry Anderson, born May 21, 1917, who was an accomplished poet and author of Thorns of the Blood Rose (1970). It is truly a modern classic of Goddess poetry and liturgy. He also published numerous articles on the Feri Tradition, Huna and Witchcraft in such publications as Witch Eye, Green Egg, and Nemeton magazines. He was originally initiated in 1926 as a member of Harpy Coven (Faerie) in southern Oregon. He met his wife Cora Ann Cremeans on Beltane/May Day 1944 and they were married three days later. Together they initiated some of the most influential leaders in contemporary Paganism, including Starhawk and the late Gwydion Pendderwen. He was Grand Master of the Pictish Tradition of Witchcraft, more widely known now as the Feri Tradition. Victor passed away on September 20, 2001. Cora, his wife of 57 years, carried on the tradition after his death. She also published the classic book Fifty Years in the Feri Tradition (1994) which is the musings about the Feri tradition and its community.

6:00pm Heather from Seattle, Washington writes, "I want Thelemic Prayer flags! Especially now I know the history of the angels and demons... Has Luna made more?" ... and even Ben Hance, who was over here awhile ago, went crazy over the flags smiling and noting "I want a set!" ... So Luna, I guess you might have to make some more to sell, no?  Let us know!

1:00pm LUNA sent me a great set of 'Thelemic Prayer Flags' which now hang proudly across the wall of my bedroom. Thanks!

6:40am Today we include the last installment of an 'Internal Dialogue between Luna and Grady…titled Washed ashore from the Sea of Binah on the Far Side of the Moon.  ENJOY!

....continuing into present time (today)

Luna washed ashore.

"Where am I?"

There was a vainly handsome shirtless man standing above her.

"Hi Luna, welcome to my crater"

"Hi Jack"

Jack helped Luna to stand and walked her to the rim.

Jack pointed down into his crater.

Luna laughed and laughed and laughed at what she saw....and she was happy.

She was Happy again.

Luna looked at Jack and smiled.

Jack just nodded his head and smiled too.

and they both looked down at the Acme Dynamite Company.

"beep beep" said the Road Runner as he brought Jack and Luna some refreshments.

Jack walked Luna down the into the crater to a huge radio telescope that he had built.

Jack said:  "Luna, it's okay.  There is no interference here on the far side of the moon.  No interference on the psychic airwaves coming in from Earth to bother you.  If you look through this telescope you can see back down to Earth with no interference by way of a series of mirrors that reflect what is going on on Earth via mirrors set up on Pluto."

Luna said  "Thank you Jack...thank you so much.  I was about to go mad from all of the interferring frequencies...I just could not take it any longer."

...Luna put her eye to the telescope...sipped on some of the Road Runners delicious refreshments...and began to look, to see...

and all was quiet in her head.

...meanwhile...Grady was remembering...

Grady's memes created pictures...Silent Movies...that Luna could see.

and all was quiet in her head.

The End.

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6:30am For the history buffs: It was on this date in 1776 that Adam Weishaupt, a professor of Canon (Church) Law at Ingolstadt in the German state of Bavaria, founded the Illuminati, or the Illuminated Ones. He wanted to create an elite circle of intellectuals who would be privy to the most esoteric mysteries of the cosmos, and be the rightful heirs to all the mysteries and secret societies of the ancient world. …… I don’t know the actual year but we do know that on this date Maria Teresa de Miramar, whom Crowley called the High Priestess of Voodoo, was born in Nicaragua. She and Crowley were married in Germany on August 16th 1929. Although they were seemingly a nice couple, Crowley would leave her within a year for the 19-year-old German artist Hanni Jaeger. ……. And I’d like to point out that Dr. Josef Allen Hynek, an icon in the history of UFO, was born on this date in Chicago, Illinois in 1910. He worked for U.S. Air Force’s UFO project Blue Book as a consultant astronomer. Admittedly, when he first started in the program his attitude toward people who had seen UFOs was that, quote, only “kooks ans Crackpots” saw UFOs. But after a couple of years he started to notice that many of the reports were by highly credible military personal and civilians. Finally, being forced to dismiss several credible witnesses at the Michigan as seeing ‘swamp gas,’ he resigned. Hynek led the investigation of the Socorro UFO landing case in 1964 with the FBI. He went on with the at the time young Jaques Vallee and founded the Center of UFO Studies in Illinois in 1973. In April of 1986 Hynek died. He wrote such books as The UFO Experience: A Scientific Inquiry, Night Siege: The Hudson Valley UFO Sightings and What You Should Know About UFOs. ……. And it was on this date in 1923 that Aleister Crowley was expelled from Italy by Mussolini and forced to leave his Abbey of Thelema. Three months later he released a small pamphlet titled Songs For Italy. The subtitle of this piece was ‘Parturiunt Montes - Nascitur Ridiculus Mus – Saolini’, which has been translated as ‘The mountain brought forth a mouse and who was the mouse?’ This is a quote from a fictitious Saolini, whose name when added to the last word of the quote, ‘Mus’, equals ‘Mus-Saolini’ or Mussolini. ……. And finally, on this date in 1974 Arnold Crowther, the stage magician and ventriloquist who had a strong interests in paganism and witchcraft, died. He authored such books as Let’s Put on a Show (1964), Linda and the Lollipop Man (1973), Yorkshire Customs (1974), Hex Certificate (late 1970s). His greatest claim to fame in witchcraft is that he was the person responsible for introducing Gerald B Gardner to Aleister Crowley.

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